Felt really down on myself this morning.

Sometimes I just have to ask: what the hell am I doing? I'm making this up as I go along, and so much is out of my control.

I'M out of my control (the inconvenient truth).

It's really easy to get discouraged because I don't always have feedback when I need it. I have to rely on myself a lot. Feel confidence.

It's not always there.

I make mistakes, but nobody is here to give me real shit about them. Consequences float away. I KNOW they are there (lurking), down the road, but I tend to ignore them.

All this to say: I'm feeling better.