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Drove to Buzz/Wharf, and got back early.  The fiddled at studio (no marketplace dm's boo!!!!) and trekked to Union Market with jumbo cart. The trip there was manageable, but the trip home was a slog.  I don't know why, but completely wore me out (like walking the dogs at lunch, and then just now at 6;30).

 

It starts out ok, I walk in the shade.  There is a slight breeze.  But suddenly the crushing heat and stifling air just hits, my body feels like clay, my skin is so hot, and I just want to get out of it as fast as possible.  

I come back to the studio, drink, and collapse on the floor to recover.  It's ridiculous.  Amidst all this stupidness, I don't get much actual work done.  Glad to have deliveries completed finally.

Just in no mood to work.  TO draw, to print, to clean, to edit, to post.  Nothing.  I am a big zero. 

 

Truly horrific heat that is debilitating.  I have to rest every time I come back inside.  Maybe the air quality is terrible as well.  Probably.  Then I get so sick of the constantly blowing AC, even though thank god I have it.  It's all just so sucky.

The day started out ok but devolved into massive sluggishness that I'm punishing myself for now.  Messy Dave feels like crap, wasting so much time on nothing.  Stalling, waiting, for things to feel better, righter.  Time just speeds by.  June almost over.  Not good.

FB marketplace took on a life of its own.  Overconfidence became obsession and frustration.  The chairs.  The pair-o-chairs became a curse of insecurity and insanity.  Happily, I discarded them onto the sidewalk this morning.  

One is left, sitting there without its mate, lost and dislocated, wondering what the future holds.  I'm sorry, that's no longer my problem - you are on your own. 

 

Weeks just blur away.  Days flow into blocks that quickly pass by, suddenly it's weekend, rest, then Monday again.  

Super hot Monday.  Super, super hot.  Great news about Emma.  Such good news.  Can't believe how relieved we feel.  Weekend spent worrying.

Selling lots of stuff on marketplace.  And the pick-ups make me all anxious.  But it's something.

Cards came in Saturday after I worked myself into a hysterical frenzy Friday complaining to both companies about how they were stuck in shipping limbo/hell.  Came in Saturday to sort them all out, and some are damaged.  Shit, I forgot to send complaint today.

Managed to get G-Town delivered, but the other children always get neglected.  Maybe tomorrow.  IT'S SO HOT !!!

Have drawing to do.  But feel a bit happier after recent successes.  Stressing about licensing info coming/not coming. Such a thorn in my side, but most likely will all work out.

Iran fear seems to have dissipated.  But how could it?????????  NOTHING MAKES ANY SENSE ANYMORE, NOTHING. 

 

 Ugh - today was a wash.  Late start, and basically zero accomplished.

Tattoo was a hit, which is great. New cards arriving soon. Emma's B-Day.  I don't know, hoping for better tomorrow.  After the horrific dentist of course.

 

 

 Nice creative day, coming off late yesterday afternoon, working on new card ideas, and June postcard.  Fun when the flow and momentum hit, and I just want to draw and tweak and draw some more.

Then I need to stop, assess, and figure out what will actually work (sell) and what is just something I like.

Then the small wave of disappointment hits, when I realize I only have a few good ones, and should probably cut the rest.  And, it's time to stop and move on.  Always hard to stop.

 

Anyway, fun day, and hopefully what I did will be great. 

 

 Time goes by.  There are highs and lows.

Made it to GTown to drop thousands of cards, and saw the main rack moved.  ugh, always bothers me (changes).  I didn't say anything.

Lovely transformative time at UO as always.  My church, my respite, my memory, my past, my safety, my inspiration, my jealousy, my Shawn, my procrastination, my joy.

Back to the studio and worked on cards, which was a lot of fun.  F L O W is always electric.  Lots of fun ideas.

Emma a bit down, diarrhea this morning.  Hope she recovers easily!

GLENSTONE reserved tomorrow am.  Who am I kidding?  Ha, I will wait to cancel.

 

No nibbles on marketplace (crap).  Ugh. 

 

 Re-joined the gym, and got out of the practice of blogging, it happens, Plus hex went to LA, and everything got out of whack.

Anyway, its already deep into June. Today was nice because I was out of studio at Cher's most of the day.  Last few work days have been tough, just so freaking unmotivated and directionless.  Ugh.  Friday Richelle and family came, and we did a long printing demonstration.  Wore me out!  Weekend was gay pride (uneventful haha)

Anyway, not much more to day.  Big project is in rearview mirror.  Kind of a bust all around, but so happy its O V E R. so happy.

Now on to other things.