Thursday, April 28, 2016

memory came back today, and made me feel so nostalgic:

working in the backroom at bsur with Erin, and Kim coming back, end of the day, all anxious to leave. artwork review with Adam went well, and I had my marching orders for the next day.  Just that feeling of being together, working together, miserable together, happy together.  I wish I could go back for that quick moment.

fine day, in a very very fast week.  cards to Pixie, and sold some prints (!).  always a good feeling.  Worked on windows print, and at the last minute I realized I forgot to wash out the eye / ear part, so I wouldnt be able to finish without exposing another screen.  So that was that.  Luckily I had hte next screen all ready to go.

weather is such a throw back.  This spring has been rocky.  Back to cold and gloomy - almost fall like.  It's hard to adjust.

Remi doing ok, still drippy eyes.  Jimmy I just dont know.  worry worry worry. fingers always crossed.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Posters came out ok. I like the idea of having them, and printing them easily, but not of stocking them.  I always hate the idea of stocking things.  I always want in and out.  Maybe bad memories of bsur
few boxes in basement > boxes in bedrooms > offices of boxes > hallways and back rooms and offices of boxes > warehouse of boxes.  Gross.

anyway, I'm not so happy with the paper, which I was afraid of, and feel somehow guilty that Im not printing them myself.  What kind of printmaker buys all this printmaking equipment, rents a studio, and them buys (cheapy??) "posters" to sell.  All kinds of ridiculous.

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Warm day today.

worked on finishing "Balls" print (came out great) and started the Window one.  Really time to deep clean my screens.

Life is Great postcards in, really happy with them.  Posters are good, but I would love better paper.  Its always all about the paper.

Remi doing better, and so is Jimmy.  Good news all around!

Monday, April 25, 2016

Friday, April 22, 2016

another rough (ruff??) few days with Remi, now worrying about her eyes, getting up early, finding suprises in the bed, frequent walks, wobbly legs, and administration of meds.

We've gone down this road with her (poor health), and it's scary to think we won't be going back.  So hard seeing her age.  I remember it with Butter.

Work a little blah still.  Making reprints, and planning a large piece for CORK & FORK.  Got through some drawings, which always feels good.  Ordered some posters too (below).  Anxious to see how those turn out.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

slowish day.

pumped the brakes from yesterday.

love the warm weather

remi still doing well

have some outstanding art to hear about

cautiously optimistic

Monday, April 18, 2016

a lot of hurdles overcome

remi doing much better

taxes finished

artwork sent

artwork picked up




Saturday, April 16, 2016

Major health scare for Remi Friday morning.  Took her to the vet and got some meds.  Waiting on blood work news, but hoping it's just arthritis.  Fingers crossed.

Sunny saturday.  I don't really want to be at my desk right now...

Thursday, April 14, 2016

yesterday better than today!

frustration printing, but in the end the print turned out better.  One small mistake exploded into a bigger mess, until it all sunk the print.  I started over.

Getting a little busier...

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

every day my computer (and remi) gets a little slower.  Safari is dying a s l o o w death.

one day, I'll have to get a new one

WHAT IS LOVE / Kiesza is so great!

pretty good day.

Monday, April 11, 2016

good weekend -- rock creek / rockville / parcheesi / noodle roni

not much more to report

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Friday, April 8, 2016

pushing myself to draw daily, and stay positive.  And make a different choice…

coffee with Tommy today

yesterday I found a new spot to draw in my studio -- near the door, natural light, and most importantly away from my (((fucking))) screen(s).

I realize I have ceased to draw.  Only when I absolutely need to, and my muscles and brain are so out of shape because of it.

When I read back in this blog, one thing that I always come back to is my frustration with drawing.  It's such a push pull thing for me.  Sometimes I think that I really just don't enjoy it.  Sometimes I convince myself that I can't do it (which turns into a giant wall of despair.)   I wish I had more command over my hand.  It's more like it spasms once in a blue moon and a drawing results.

Anyway - so much angst.  NOTHING will be accomplished if I don't try.  I need to try more.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Listening to new pet shop boys SUPER.  I like it, but very fleeting.  Not the juicy "meal" I was hoping for.

Bjork comes on next in the queue.  Now thats meaty, but I can't take it's sadness anymore.

it's a rough transition!  like falling off a cliff.

COLD weather returned, but it's not affecting me much.  Knowing that it will be over soon makes all the difference.

Trying to force myself to draw daily.  I realize these muscles have really atrophied. I'm right back into that BSUR trap I felt years ago.  Drawing has become less playful, or more mandatory.  It's all a mind game.  I need to feel the fun again.  Sad to say, but it's the truth...

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Weird going backwards in time on the blog.  I can't believe I've kept up with it for so long.  There is rich history here!

Always fun to go back same day a year at a time and see where I was, what I was thinking.  Slow and fast changes.  But the overall theme is the same: struggle over drawings, feelings, and insecurity.  I guess that is what striking out on my own is (was) all about.  Never knowing what the future holds, and always feeling insecure about it.  But really anybody could say that!  duh.

Anyway, it's saturday, and I finished up some loose ends on prints.  Early morning at the flea market with Hexy, and now the weather is opening up, I'm basically done at work, and trying the think of what to do.

A universal question!

What to do next ???