I'm hitting that time when I tell myself to keep up with this and post, but day after day it gets kind of late, and I am in no mood.
So I'll just list accomplishments.
Went to Home Depot with Hexy and got the large piece of wood for the shop print. All worked out well, the wood was cheap, easy to cut, and hex helped a lot with tying to the car. Of course now I need cheap paint for the green, so I'm going to have to go back. Ace was ridiculous expensive.
I've primed it and painted it, and am anxious to get started. But of course, I'm stalled because of the green paint. Ugh.
Coffee with C tomorrow. complicated.
The poor dog is crying next door. I don't think it's left alone very much. Its really getting hysterical.
Ok day overall. Mad dash to make final prints so I could drop off at Wharf and then Dupont for the weekend. Finally made some DOG > YOU prints, which were always successful, and I never thought to remake. Sometimes Im so muddled.
I found some 4 x 6 frames on the street, and printed out some designs to go into them. So simple, but I think they are really cute, and very sellable. But what do I know??? I'm really starting to wonder. Or have been wondering for a long time now. Whatever I think will sell, doesn't. Or it takes time. and I feel so impatient. May has been a total sales bust.
Anyway, got that done, and the by the time I got emma walked and back, the wind was out of my sails. Its 8 now, friday, and Im ready to abandon my angst for the weekend. Only to have it emerge tomorrow, when i stress out about a sidewalk sale that I just never seem to have.
ONE DAY, I will get my shit together. That will be a happy day.
Ok day - got cicada tees finished and delivered to G town, and a few orders out. Ego boost in Dupont as cashier was super excited to meet me - the artist behind some of her favorite art. Always nice to hear.
Switching gears to printing for next of week. Waaaaay behind as usual. But I hope to catch up some next few days. Postponed coffee with J and C, so I could have more time to work. USE IT DAVE
Today - taxes 2020 accomplished. Ugh - the worst the worst the worst. I really hate doing them. Fingers crossed I did everything right.
Printed more Cicada tees too. And fretted about all that is to come.
Really nice celebration yesterday in Rockville. Everything went off well, we got them downstairs (dad was delayed) and had a great meal. Éclairs were great and very appreciated. All that hard work Saturday.
Hex and I spent the rest of the day there, sort of got stuck with meals and AC. There is a black hole of need. Turns out that today there are more problems. My heart and stomach sinks. I fear hard times very near. The next big step with be to get them out of the house, in into a more safe setting. Ugh x 10000000
Rough emotions envelop everything. These are dark days.
I'm anxious to get thu to the other side, whatever is there.
BOGGED down by taxes and anxiety and shopmade and projects and XXX and $$$ and gas shortages, and too spicy chili and vertigo spells and lost mouth guards and runny pudding and drippy faucets. The list could be endless.
Long day spent cooking for our delayed Mother's Day celebration tomorrow. Éclairs came out so so, and took forever. Walked to studio to pay citi bill, get out of the house, and exercise Emma. Giclée prints delivered at the door (yay!!) which sent me in a whole different direction.
Ok, must F O C U S, water, and get out of here, so I can get home in time and make sure faucet is correct.
Better day today.
Got cicada cards in, just in time. ShopMade came calling for all the products I made up out of thin air LAST week, wanting to know when they would get them (after promoting on IG Monday). Yikes. I hope the risk pays off. So far cicadas have been not very exciting. Is brood x actually coming??
Anyway, got cards out, and the ZZZ print that was lots of effort, but came out really good. And she was happy in the end.
Lots to do coming up. Very overwhelming. But int eh end, that is probably better.
Bogged down day switching gears trying to work on all fronts.
Cards to Canopy (ugh, not really pressing) and cards to G-town (double ugh. Thought this errand would make me feel good getting accomplished. Instead, it had the exact opposite effect. Discouraged to see they moved my prints around in the store, to a lessor place. And there were a lot of them. And I dropped off way too few cards)
Printing more wood for WHARF, and came back so discouraged. But managed to swing myself out of the spiral, and move forward.
Late now, rainy and still cold, and tomorrow up in the air. I never want to do sidewalk sale, but EVENTUALLY things will have to change. I feel like I'm working on nothing productive (where $ is concerned). Somehow, someway, it will pay off.
Feeling sooo drained after a busy day going in all directions. Cicada products slipped into my work flow and disrupted all. I kept making changes and feeling unsatisfied, and that probably led to the exhaustion.
Ordered more cards which has become the big giant emotional barrier now. Partly because their prices went way up, and I seem to need more of each to satisfy all the shops. But then I'm SO unsure about the designs, and if they will sell. It's a rollercoaster. We'll just see. It's always a guess. ALWAYS.
Went out to Dude's with Hex and had a lot of fun meeting them and seeing the dogs. The trip there was fraught with wrong turns and direction frustration, but luckily that didn't spoil things. Lots of things to work out with them before the project is all set. I'm anxious to get it all moving along.
Bummer turnout with _ about his project. I just saw red flags, and will probably be for the best? It's really hard to say, and I especially hate turning down business. I guess I'll never know.
messy monday but that is typical.
Coffee with Cheryl - nice, but not totally the pick-me-up I was expecting. Lots of issues to discuss, and while we tried to keep it light and fun, it's hard to deny the weight of some of the things we ended on. And with all this Covid insanity (the super non social-ness of it all, for months) it's a new thing to return to relationships and anxieties. It's stretching old muscles to discuss OTHER people's lives and issues, when we (I) am so used to focusing on myself. Those skills are rusty, and they need to be redeveloped. Hard to fully explain.
Back to studio to draw more useless Karen Cicada posts, and get stuff out to USPS and ShopMade Dupont.
Here I sit, end of day, unsatisfied with what I have accomplished.
Fun brunch with bill anne chad and hexy in g-town, then a walk around.
Reliving afternoons at bsur, frustrated and walking. Or scouting catalog shoots that never happened according to plan.
Was really nice to get out of my mental bubble and see different people and had different perspectives! A hidden problem with COVID that has not always been obvious. The mental bubble - home, work, rockville, VA - week after week after week.
