Melancholy and nostalgia continue to rule the day.

More progress moving.  Every day is another layer.

Sometime next week, it will be all done, and I can move

F  > O > R > W > A > R > D

BRANDDAVE STUDIOS - I See a theme

STUDIO 1811

STUDIO 1716

STUDIO 4903

such a crappy messy mix of emotions past few days.  I just want to leave, but I also want to stay.

So hard throwing away all this stuff (that I don't want or use). The mass of it makes me feel guilty.  A million decisions that should be easy, but they add up to so much angst!

I'm in this between place where I don't belong here anymore, but I'm not comfortable there just yet.  Reminds me of all my apt moves.  That weird feeling of being in a new place with unknown people all around.

I remember my first few days in the Hudson I would take Remi in and out through the stairs and garage.  I felt so weird going in the elevator and lobby -- so public and conspicuous.  Ridiculous but real.  I just wanted to be discreet.  I didn't feel like I belonged.

Anyway - it's really hard.  But we have made a lot of progress in a week.  Hex has made a million handcart trips.  And I'm surprised that the new studio doesn't seem packed. Maybe it will?

The BIG THINGS have yet to make it over.  They are the ones that really scare me.

mixed emotions

the wall is talking

moving is the pits

its the worst

I hate it

confronted with a million pieces of shit that I'm holding onto.

Papers and prints and magazines that I look at once in 1,0000 years.

But I can't let them go.

They hold value.

They HAD purpose.

THEY ARE MINE

I want to just throw it ALL away

but I won't allow myself to.

"hate" walking away

mental progress.

hex handcarting things over to studio new, while I pack and toss in studio old.

fun photoshoot with jenny this morning.  Nice to document the space.  She was just-in-time.  A few hours later, and it's all 6's & 7's.

"Hate" walked off in Lily's arms yesterday.  "Bitter" went today.  I'm so happy that in the end, they found their way in her care.  Everything worked out just perfectly.

LET THE MOVE BEGIN !

this problem leads to that problem

worry worry worry

lost email - no wait, delayed response

rainy coldy windy.

S L O W  I N T E R N E T

avoid avoid avoid

dread fear excitement anticipation regret

SPAM -- endless spam

MOVING IS HORRIBLE.

but it gives you a chance to get rid of crap you dont want or need

more of the same

anxious days worrying about the move, and getting stuff done.  Lots of cards to trohv and pixies.  NEED MORE CARDS!

I wish everything wasn't like pulling water from stone.  I wish ideas were flowing.  Drawings just working out.  soon!

snakeman wallpaper going up ! ! !

feel a little more on track today.

made some drawing progress.

It's been a weird time (still).  The calm before the moving storm, and still struggling focusing on work and being creative.  But today was a good start.  yesterday too.  Hopefully I can work up some momentum.

another day!

more of the same, but made progress on taxes, which is g-o-o-d.

dipped my feet back into the drawing pond.  my foot didn't burn off.  Tomorrow I'll stick my legs in.  And maybe try to swim.

worried

nervous

anxious

excited

worried

another day.