dear dave
always lonely in my thoughts on Thanksgiving Eve. The holiday ahead, and I'm here at the studio, hesitating to leave. Busy days ahead!
Working on site, and getting things ready for hopeful orders. Spent most of the day working on JDI, which very happily is coming together. But takes A LOT of brainpower and energy with all the details.
Turkey tomorrow in Rockville with John and Bill. First year without mom and dad. very sad.
dear dave
the dreaded H put a damper on the weekend, but think its getting better now
anxious about the weekend ahead and arts on the ave. Praying for good weather and good sales.
The whole week will be a countdown, for that, and dental appt wednesday. UGH is all I can say.
Today I tried to set myself up for the week. Freaked out about all the tan and flesh colored shirts I have. What was I thinking? I am never thinking. Now, a month later, it seems all wrong. But not fixable. Of course. All I ever do is second guess myself. I guess that is better than taking orders from some idiot boss. Keep having dreams of being back at bsur. CANNOT believe I have almost been at branddave as long as BSUR. Crazy. I just wait for the next chapter. I'm convinced it is coming.
Tomorrow is midterm elections. Very consequential and terrifying. Just want to disappear.
Another good day. Positive momentum? Worked on chipping away at the totes for Arts on the Ave, and finished Branches micro !!!! It came out great, which made me super happy.
Sorted out holiday cards, and am probably delusional about what I'm going to need. Anyway, I'm thinking a lot less this year will be needed. Time will tell.
Trips out to SM tomorrow, and more totes. Now anxious about getting my screen cleaner, which I put off ordering. Of course
Pretty good day. The buoyant mood from yesterday lasted, which feels like a miracle. We'll see if I can go 3 days now!
Better weather really helps. Printed the gator micro, and struggle over a branches mini, only to figure it out late in the day. Hopefully my new plan works. GOT IN THE EMULSION, which was on schedule. Luckily I went with plan b, because now Blick is saying it will be in stock DEC 1.
Printed a bunch of sailboats, which came out well too! Yay. Spread out all my prints on paper, and really love how they all look together. Wish I could capture in photo, but it's really hard.
Started sorting thru holiday cards and fretting about envelopes and time. RIGHT ON SCHEDULE. I knew I would be behind back in July. But it's all just a mindfuck. I'm fine. It's only Nov 2.
Feelings of well-being come and go. it really is very weird.
New month - maybe that is it. After some shitty weeks and days, today I felt lighter and fresher. A new page and attitude. Maybe because the weather was really great. Sunny and warm. Or maybe because I FINALLY got my screens cleaned. Or made some progress on shitty things. I don't know.
Anyway, things will work out. At least for today, or right now.
upcoming
election - UGH
art on ave - UGH UGH
Thanksgiving - fun
