More of the same.

hot hot days.  mask misery, and lack of focus.  today I spent too much time doing mask spec work, and much of what I did is not usable.  So other stuff didn't get accomplished.

Happy the lost V finally showed up.  Wish the stupid company communicated with me instead of keeping me in the dark.

Making slow progress on gaggle.

Days later.  Happy to have taxes behind and dentist round 2 behind.  onto bigger and better things.

Tough time figuring out how to get Lee's wood from there to here, but all worked out perfectly. 

Went to HOME DEPOT and found a great piece that was precut small, and just had to trim it - bribe the workers there to do it for me.  I planned how to get it on my car, and managed to park right across from a group of day laborers.  I could feel their eyes on me as I methodically failed to tie the right knots.  Happily a guy came over and helped me out.

Working on some other fun little prints too, but it's all so dumb (in my head).  Instead of production type runs I do these little one-offs.  I think like an artist and not a business.

Frustration with FB as I try to implement shopping functions into my instagram posts.  So much rig amoral to get it to work.  Not happy with any of it, yet I try and try because I think I should, and I just want to solve the puzzle in front of me. 

Yesterday I spent all this time trying to figure out what time zone I was in according to their crazy options.  Options I never heard of, and got more and more complicated as I started to google them all.  In the end, I couldn't even figure that out, so I gave up and just picked one.

Overall: UGH.  Ugh to figuring out what to print.  UGH to spending money.  UGH to trohv closing.  UGH to BUZZ closing.  UGH to fucker trump.  UGH to everything.

2 0 1 9 taxes done! An epic journey of angst.  Feel drained to the core.

on to other things

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S A T U R D A Y at the studio!

A good time to catch up, but instead I come up with Instagram ideas and then fret about the fact that nobody seems to see them because FUCKING Instagram hides them, expecting me to pay them to show the free content that I'm giving them in the first place.

So it's a loopy mood of manic creation and epic frustration, and the real stuff I need to do gets pushed off.

Suddenly commercials have reinvaded my life.  On spotify and now hulu.  ugh.  somehow this relates back to instagram...

ANYWAY - sunny and super hot.  Emma home with hexy.  Working on screw you reprint, and adding inventory to SHOPMADE system.  all in flux with them, shops reopened and I need to regroup and see what they actually have of mine to sell.  With the gtown shop move and pandemic, all is muddled and foggy.  I completely stopped creating and printing any cards.  Buzz still closed I think???

LOTS to do always.  But most important is to STAY POSITIVE and CREATIVE.  MOST MOST important.

Nice to have this place to bitch and moan again.  A place to put these thoughts.  ALL this angst!

Hey Blog,

Long time no see, write, share, blab, vent.

Friday night, classic angst.  More to do always, regrets about what wasn't finished. 

Sad George Michael song playing makes me think about Sue, and all the sadness and grief rushes back. 

What to do with her ashes?  How to memorialize her on her birthday/?  What is facebook and instagram anymore?  I post stuff and it gets buried under all the other stuff.  Nobody sees it.  Feeling invisible lately.

Just posted a sale, and instagram shows it to nobody.  How do they know what it is?  They are just trying to get me to buy ads.  to promote it.  How do other people do it?  such a mystery to me.  HOW TO SELL ONLINE ? ? ?  It eludes me.

Emma is up and down on the floor, just like remi was before her.  Anxious to get me going.  We are off to Great Falls in a minute.  Friday is the new saturday.  Easier all around.  Or at least it was when traffic was dead.  I have a feeling tonight may be different.  But it's a good time to go when it's not so hot.

Life is rough!  Not a good year.  ups and downs.  Lots of anxiety.  And obsession with the news.  I tell myself to stay positive.  Will be so glad when taxes are done (4 days?)  Happy to have teeth sort of resolved.  So much fear.

Its friday, and for now that is all behind.  Great Falls will be a good chance to feel free, and enjoy Emma and the woods.