Tuesday, July 28, 2020

More of the same.

hot hot days.  mask misery, and lack of focus.  today I spent too much time doing mask spec work, and much of what I did is not usable.  So other stuff didn't get accomplished.

Happy the lost V finally showed up.  Wish the stupid company communicated with me instead of keeping me in the dark.

Making slow progress on gaggle.

Wednesday, July 22, 2020

Days later.  Happy to have taxes behind and dentist round 2 behind.  onto bigger and better things.

Tough time figuring out how to get Lee's wood from there to here, but all worked out perfectly. 

Went to HOME DEPOT and found a great piece that was precut small, and just had to trim it - bribe the workers there to do it for me.  I planned how to get it on my car, and managed to park right across from a group of day laborers.  I could feel their eyes on me as I methodically failed to tie the right knots.  Happily a guy came over and helped me out.

Working on some other fun little prints too, but it's all so dumb (in my head).  Instead of production type runs I do these little one-offs.  I think like an artist and not a business.

Frustration with FB as I try to implement shopping functions into my instagram posts.  So much rig amoral to get it to work.  Not happy with any of it, yet I try and try because I think I should, and I just want to solve the puzzle in front of me. 

Yesterday I spent all this time trying to figure out what time zone I was in according to their crazy options.  Options I never heard of, and got more and more complicated as I started to google them all.  In the end, I couldn't even figure that out, so I gave up and just picked one.

Overall: UGH.  Ugh to figuring out what to print.  UGH to spending money.  UGH to trohv closing.  UGH to BUZZ closing.  UGH to fucker trump.  UGH to everything.

Wednesday, July 15, 2020

2 0 1 9 taxes done! An epic journey of angst.  Feel drained to the core.

on to other things




Saturday, July 11, 2020

S A T U R D A Y at the studio!

A good time to catch up, but instead I come up with Instagram ideas and then fret about the fact that nobody seems to see them because FUCKING Instagram hides them, expecting me to pay them to show the free content that I'm giving them in the first place.

So it's a loopy mood of manic creation and epic frustration, and the real stuff I need to do gets pushed off.

Suddenly commercials have reinvaded my life.  On spotify and now hulu.  ugh.  somehow this relates back to instagram...

ANYWAY - sunny and super hot.  Emma home with hexy.  Working on screw you reprint, and adding inventory to SHOPMADE system.  all in flux with them, shops reopened and I need to regroup and see what they actually have of mine to sell.  With the gtown shop move and pandemic, all is muddled and foggy.  I completely stopped creating and printing any cards.  Buzz still closed I think???

LOTS to do always.  But most important is to STAY POSITIVE and CREATIVE.  MOST MOST important.

Nice to have this place to bitch and moan again.  A place to put these thoughts.  ALL this angst!

Friday, July 10, 2020

Hey Blog,

Long time no see, write, share, blab, vent.

Friday night, classic angst.  More to do always, regrets about what wasn't finished. 

Sad George Michael song playing makes me think about Sue, and all the sadness and grief rushes back. 

What to do with her ashes?  How to memorialize her on her birthday/?  What is facebook and instagram anymore?  I post stuff and it gets buried under all the other stuff.  Nobody sees it.  Feeling invisible lately.

Just posted a sale, and instagram shows it to nobody.  How do they know what it is?  They are just trying to get me to buy ads.  to promote it.  How do other people do it?  such a mystery to me.  HOW TO SELL ONLINE ? ? ?  It eludes me.

Emma is up and down on the floor, just like remi was before her.  Anxious to get me going.  We are off to Great Falls in a minute.  Friday is the new saturday.  Easier all around.  Or at least it was when traffic was dead.  I have a feeling tonight may be different.  But it's a good time to go when it's not so hot.

Life is rough!  Not a good year.  ups and downs.  Lots of anxiety.  And obsession with the news.  I tell myself to stay positive.  Will be so glad when taxes are done (4 days?)  Happy to have teeth sort of resolved.  So much fear.

Its friday, and for now that is all behind.  Great Falls will be a good chance to feel free, and enjoy Emma and the woods.

Tuesday, February 4, 2020

Cleaned up the studio today - long overdue. 

I have a fantasy of going through everything and getting rid of 85% - all stuff I don't interact with at all and just store.  We'll see. 

I wish getting rid of things was easier.  I have these old signs I printed for shows, with contact info and prices.  Even those I can't seem to toss.  Well maybe I'll need them in the future I tell myself.  Ugh - we are our own worst enemy to progress.

Anyway, the air is kind of warm, and I'm sitting here in my (mostly) clean studio, and was instantly reminded of the ladder swing in the the basement with an old mattress underneath, swinging to records with Sue after cleaning up the basement (involuntarily!!!!).  Always felt good - the clean space, and the feeling of accomplishment. 

I remember, Sue.

Friday, December 27, 2019

2019 Year in Pictures!

the year in pictures

2017 year in pics
2018 year in pics

side car cat : commission

currently Rockville

early '19 print of late '18 design

Blagden x branddave x stickermule


BLAGDEN for superfine in Oct

Sticker or Label?  You decide

2nd round of button designs

you Go Nancy - big hopes!!

updated Dave portrait

Fun foray back into photography

Thanks superfine for the inspiration

Lots of bugs this year

First iteration of a much copied design

rough commission to print

Scooter!  used alot, for everything

Giclee delivery!

Shopmade GTown

2019 Wrap Up

2019 - the year I gave up blogging!

So sad really, I wish I could be more disciplined about keeping up with it.  i try and try only to lag again.  Instagram took over, that's where all the people are, and where I get the most bang for my effort.  plus how many times can I complain about NOT blogging, and not working and not drawing?  I guess I found my limit.

But I will miss having this record of my daily and weekly and monthly and yearly struggles.  I continue on with a private diary of sorts, but it's not the same.  Better in some ways, because I don't edit my feelings for consumption, but not as organized as this.  No way to keep it organized I guess.

A N Y W A Y - things change radically form year to year, and sometimes it takes me a year just to absorb the change.  Business was wayyyyyyyyy down, and picked up toward the end because I finally had a new outlet for my work, Shopmade.  But even that I managed to fuck up, because I couldn't keep with with a consistent flow of inventory.  Started out promising, but my big plans for holiday went way off track after I shifted focus to SUPERFINE in sept/oct, then got sick for weeks in Nov.

Lets see - what else?  Buzz has fizzled for prints, but still ok with cards.  BUT, hard to keep getting there to restock, and hard to keep all the cards inventory, and HAVE to keep making new designs.  All very challenging.

A great Hallmark year.  New designs in spring, and now another round this month.  Really excited to be working with them again.

Studio - a mess.  I HAVE TO re imagine it, clean out all the clutter, and set it up for success!  Gallery walls, and ORGANIZATION.  It's such a mess all the time.  2020 last year on lease, so ugh, need to renew.  The cost just escalates.  When am I being stupid???

GICLEE - a positive new step, but again, hard to manage.  What to order?  How many?  I'm always off.  Getting into the idea of printing editions again.  We'll see how that goes.  A huge can of worms.

SHIRTS - sticking with DC logo for shopmade, and that's pretty much it.  Transfers way down, but easier.  crazy.  At some point I will go back to shite shirts.  When?  And still making totes.  But it's fits and starts.  So weird how at once they are popular, then not at all.  I have no idea.

Prints - anxious to find my way as always.  Big, small?  I just don't know.

UGH - I guess all is a question.  After doing this so long, I still have no clue. What a perfect way to end the year.  Hopefully not the end of the blog.  Plan to check in now and again.  Certainly want to at least keep it active.

PS - iweb website GONE!  officially cut ties, and now it's big cartel all the way.  5 years too late!  

2018 Wrap up

2017 Wrap up 

2016 Wrap up

2015 Wrap up

2014 Wrap up

2013 Wrap up

2012 Wrap up

2011 Wrap up

2010 Wrap up

2009 Wrap up

Thursday, July 18, 2019

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
Courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference
I am not like I was before
I thought that nothing would change me
I was not listening anymore
Still you continued to affect me
I was not thinking anymore
Although I said I still was
I'd said I don't want anymore
Because of bad experience
And now I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I have not seen freedom before
And I did not expect to
Don't let me forget now I'm here
Help me to help you to behold you
I started off with many friends
And we spent a long time talking
I thought they meant every word they said
But like everyone else they were stalling
And now they seem so different
They seem so different
They seem so different
I should have hatred for you
But I do not have any
And I have always loved you
Oh you have taught me plenty
The whole time I'd never seen
All you had spread before me
The whole time I'd never seen
All I'd need was inside me
Now I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different

-Sinead O'connor

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Tired and drained after a long day in a long week (only wednesday) trying to finish up two projects that are completely divergent.

Print of the two dogs in DC for mothers day deadline 9sunday) and all the products for Shop Made (deadline NOW).  I'm never good a splitting my time / attention.  I remember in college I would study hard for one exam, and hardly lift a finger for the next.  Of course that cant happen here.

Both projects going fine, but just require a lot of work and attention.  Anxious to get the Shop Made stuff out the door!  Will be a big relief. 

And commissions - I just don't know!  Maybe I should just stop them and refuse them for awhile.  I know they are not worth all the angst and stress and effort I put into them.  This drawing was brutal.  I must have drawn the one dog 100 times.  Then finally, finally, finally I got him.  UGH!!!!!

on top of all, car is in the shop.  So walking to studio and home (with emma) can be an extra challenge. 

PATIENCE with her...

Thursday, April 25, 2019

quick week, thursday already.

Working on production prints for SM after finishing the girl, and quick drawings for Integral.  Forsythia was picked up, and out of my life.  When will I print that again?? I don't think for awhile.

Next up, Fitz and a mothers day commission that came in today.

Emma acting so unsettled today.  Made me unsettled.  She keeps moving position.  poor baby.

Reading through my epic diary I started my freshman year and carried on all through college and beyond.  Very interesting and familiar.  30 years ago.  Things are different of course, but how I feel is so similar.

Friday, April 19, 2019

Wrapping up a bizarro week full of twists and turns.  Glad to report that all things ended well, and I feel back on track.

Forsythia - DONE!
Farley - DONE!

next up is the little beagle / girl commission, and "Fitz"

But most my time will be spent getting prints ready for ShopMade.

All good!  to the future and beyond.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Major hurdle, taxes finished!

S T I L L working on forsythia print.  Hopefully will be finshed up soon.

Thursday, April 11, 2019


taxes loom

no email from ...

but I think I got the shirt/press/temp./peely/crackly thing worked out.  I think!

Sounds like dad is recovering according to schedule, which is good news

And emma bounced back after a few days ago.

No final word yet on commission, and still waiting to hear from ..., so we wait

REMARKABLE to see how long I've been writing this blog!  I just went way way back, to April '08, working on little videos for the 48 Hr film, and giant prints on wood for my first artomatic.  and still working days at BSUR.  amazing.

Wednesday, April 10, 2019