Tuesday, March 22, 2022

 A crazy time - bracing for worse, and proceeding like it's only on the other side of the world.  Reminds me so much of covid when we didn't even consider the idea that it would have an impact here.  I don't know, maybe it won't, but I think it will.  Talking about war, and how it may escalate.  I cannot believe it hasn't.  Anyway, it's always on my mind, on the back burner, stalking me.


Nicer weather, and feelings like I should be taking better advantage of it.  I always feel like I'm not doing enough.  At least in winter there is always an excuse, but as spring comes, that evaporates.  And as the restrictions of covid fade away, the city is teeming with new energy and activity.  And I usually feel like just a spectator.

Resolved to buckle down after a few off the rail weeks of getting minimal done.  Today Im printing on paper, and will be drawing.  Have lots to draw.  

 

Hah, low blood sugar, or low energy, so this whole post is sliding into a pity party.  But things are ok, relatively speaking.  Lots on my mind, but where to put it.  I just don't know...

Friday, March 4, 2022


 

 Fridays come around fast.  

Month switched over, which is always stressful with $$$$$ going out.  

 

My replacement credit card never came, so I've been reluctantly using debit, which also makes me sick to my stomach.  Ordered a huge batch of cards / envelopes for SM, and it was a big hill to get over.  Frustration with WSM coming to a head.  Reached out via email, but no response yet.  I guess it's just confirmation of what I already suspected?  Hoping for the best, but bracing for the worst.  I just don't get it.

After all my angst, I'll look at IG artists, and feel positive again.  But then it always goes straight back to > How??? I know the answer is tied up into work ethic, which I'm always lacking.  Anyway, wah wah wah

Working on REDBUD, and struggling thru commissions.  Waiting to hear on a draft I sent out, which is super nerve racking!  Reminds me of collecting on lawn cutting.  I was always so hesitant about my work.

 

Dave - - - > what a mess!

 

it's  a sunny friday morning, I'm here early, and already stalling.  Pick yourself up, and get to work!