Monday, August 31, 2009


where is everybody?

I seriously feel like I am the only one on the planet today. THe studio has been quiet. Nobody has been emailing me, or texting me. Nobody is updating the news, or their blogs. My phone is silent. My email, dead.

I feel so isolated.

I really hate it.

I'm so ready for the world to reboot again. August has been tooooo quiet. The world has just stopped, and gone on vacation.

dear dave,

Hit rock-bottom with my phone this weekend. I seriously need to STOP with it. I cant help but constantly check for email/web updates. I am so addicted to it. I need to put it away. Away!!

Had a good weekend. Took remi out Saturday, worked a bit, saw some friends, and had a nice birthday barb-b-que with family.

Monday is here again, and I want to buckle down for my show. Now that the shirts are up on branddave, I can change focus for a few days. Framing and organizing are on the menu.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

History in the making.





Friday, August 28, 2009



So much progress, but so much more to go. Its daunting, but exciting. The culmination of so much work the past few months. Feeling proud.

see store progress here

oh, and here is a picture to break up all these words. Found online - not mine! What a face! wow.

dear dave,

in the studio a bit early this morning, and loving the quiet alone time. Just reviewed all my blank shirts, in anticipation for a big buy for the show. I'm such a lousy planner. All I want to do is live in the moment. But that never works out well. Blah Blah Blah.

Loving the Pet Shop Boys. Thinking about my postcards, and Hexy's comment about Dave's "sad" face on one of them. I knew he would have this reaction - so much so that I hesitated about using it. In the end I wanted to. I want that melancholy. So much of my artwork has that sadness behind the smile. Its a part of me. And I want to show that as well.

Anyway - full circle - so do the Pet Shop Boys. And that's what keeps me interested.


Site coming along. I make progress, them review review review. I'm liking the direction I'm taking it. Move forward.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

I have always been a huge fan of playing marco/polo. I really love how playful it is, and the whole rhythm of it. The calling out, then splashing around, then calling out. Its fun and exciting-and brings back so many warm and fuzzy memories of being at the pool, middle of the summer, with friends, super happy.
dear dave,

Yesterday was really fun. Making shirts, then shooting with Dave K. We had a good time walking around the neighborhood. I'm really loving our collaboration. He is such a great conduit for my work. I feel really lucky to have found him, and to be working with him. Cheers to you Dave!!

Slowly the light is changing. And the smells. Summer is letting go, and fall is seeping in. I love the slow transition. Every day feels like a tiny step, until they all add up to major change.

By Thursday, I am usually hyper focused, and ready to work. Funny how that happens. My head is stimulated and excited. I have new content to work with, and new ideas. One usually leads to the next. I feel creative.

Excited to get my new postcards in today. FINGERS crossed that they are all I imagine them to be. Anxious to get the word out about my show.

Happy with my new work. I need to resist changing up my whole site (again) to put in new shirts and photos. I need to create a breathing format, so it doesn't take me hours to make little changes.


How exciting. Ok - time to go - and make some $$$!

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

dear dave,

this cicadas are AMAZING this morning. Just amazing. I really LOVE them.

Still working on site today. Back and forth and up and down. i keep changing gears. But I think Ive settled on a pattern, so its full steam ahead. I will get this thing done.

Shoot with Dave later today. Need to make some new shirts. Feeling uninspired. Oh well. MAKE it work. Maybe a cicada t.

I seriously need to step back, and gain some perspective. how I could feel stress is ( SHOULD BE!) beyond me. I just need to remember, Ive got it made. Made in the shade. (maybe a nice t-shirt idea?)

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

(i wish I took this picture, but I didn't)

mr. neglectful (speaking)

dear readers,

a trickle has turned into a drip drip drip. I feel like I am being so neglectful in my blogging. ESPECIALLY freehand, which hasn't seen a new post in weeks.

I haven't been drawing enough lately. I really want to be more disciplined (in everything). I don't exactly know how my time is squandered, but I know it is. I wish I could find more time to go to the gym, talk on the phone, and draw.

All I feel is frustration (with myself). Change is in the air.

working on my website store. Fits and starts. All my weaknesses are coming to the fore. I don't really want to list them here, but I feel wrapped up in an epic battle with them all lately. Good must prevail. I MUST finish this project.

August malaise is getting me down. I want change. New energy. And communication. I feel like nobody is involved with me, and visa verso. Come back people. I am here.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Sunday, August 23, 2009

dear dave,

this is my 827th post. That's pretty impressive (to me)

Waiting for Hexy to return with shampoo, so i can give Remi a bath (after a big-time run in Rock Creek). Hot day, but nice to be in the woods, by the water, with my buddy. She loves jumping in deep water, and it was fun to see the strong current pull her down stream (not dangerous) while she paddled to get to shore. She always manages to find some skanky ball to play with in the mini dams of sticks and Styrofoam cups. A Labrador to the bones.

Worked on my revised postcard yesterday. Working Saturdays has become routine. I really enjoy it. Im seriously becoming a workaholic.

Anyway, such conflict over my show, and the postcard. And my sucky magazine ( I mean disappointingly printed on lousy paper magazine). Dave encouraged me to continue on with it, but I'm seriously doubting I will. Couldn't decide what images to use for the postcard. Maybe because I don't have my show pulled together yet. I'm behind.

I settled on 2, and ordered a bit less, totally expecting Vistaprint to throw in a great deal for extra, just after I ordered. No special offer came (it ALWAYS does!). Ha - classic.

Friday, August 21, 2009

super busy couple of days. Making new shirts and taking pictures. All turned out pretty good, considering how behind I constantly was. New guys to shoot, which was really fun. Both incredibly nice and easy, and very photogenic.

So I have a lot of editing to do, but it's fun. Site coming along.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

dear dave,

worked on website today (store). Finally got into a groove, after trying MULTIPLE variations. I just wasn't finding what I was looking for. But once I did, I became obsessed. Change - repeat - and view. I go into these editing comas. Time stands still.

Anyway, super happy (and proud) of all my work. When things come together like that, its so nice to stand back and say to yourself:
well done.

All the shirts, the photos, the models, the drawings, the locations, the photography, the editing, the page creation -- its my work! I feel really good about it. Special THANKS to all the models who Ive been working with.

Once again, its 5:30, and I have a million things I want to do before I leave. But Hexy and Remi are waiting for me.

Wonderful Hexy and Remi.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

spec shirts for anne: mens/womens
dear dave,

Im very edit-y lately. Im always changing my mind and tweaking. I much prefer the "love it-dont want to change a thing" mentality.

Remi came to work with me. My guilt over not running her this weekend took over. Seeing her napping on the couch as I closed the door was just too much. When I picked up her leash she was sooooo happy and bouncy. Little does she know its just going to be a long day sleeping on the (warm) studio floor. Oh well.

Ive been looking for some more models, to replace shots of _. Looking for smiles. Smiles are key.

Ok - Im off to get my haircut. Im looking so schlubby. blah.

Monday, August 17, 2009

remember when,
you were more easily lead,
behind the cricket pavilion,
and the bicycle shed?

trembling as,
your dreams came true,
you looked right in,
to those blue eyes and knew-

-pet shop boys, can you forgive her?

I really love this. I see it so perfectly.
dear dave,

typical Monday - hard to get started. So busy towards the end of last week. Now what?

Finished my secret project -- FREEHAND magazine, published thru MagCloud. Now I'm waiting for the proof to come, so I can make changes and publish. hoping (expecting) to have it for my show (SEPTEMBER 11/STUDIO 4903).

I have such mixed feelings about it. Now that its done, Im obsessed with whats missing. It feels like a first draft. But I need to let it go and move on. I have other things on my plate (or they should be on my plate).

Sold some more work - which is great. Excited to get back into the Corcoran.

I BINGED on blogs yesterday. Its so incredible, all the work out there. I found so much great stuff, my head is spinning. So many artists, all doing similar things. Prints and shirts and blogs and websites. ITs really cool, but sometimes its overwhelming. I cant wrap my head around it, or maybe its just that I feel so small. Where do I fit in this vast sea? Sometimes its better just not to think about.

Hopefully I can rally myself, and work on some shirts now. Michael with be here (to shoot) before I know it.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

my biggest fan

dear dave,

I have been meaning to scan this photo of Irene. Its been squirreled away in my notebook for awhile, and finally I pulled it out, scanned it, and here it is.

Irene Wong in my first ever t-shirt.

Irene was my biggest fan, hands down, and I will ALWAYS remember her and miss her, but also FEEL her.

At crucial times in my life, I have felt her hand on me, and the only way to describe it is love. This embrace of love and caring.

She was such and inspiration, and has had an enormous influence on me and my work, long after her death. This shirt was born out of her and Jordy's encouragement, and started my career. Be As You Are would never have existed with me if it wasnt for this shirt, and the few that followed.

I remember when I made it. Some people got it, thought it was funny, but not many. Months later I was back at the drawing board, and I came up with 12 Lovers of Life/12 Disillusioned Souls and good dog/bad dog. So much history. So important to me.

Anyway, I love looking back, and remembering all the seeds that sprouted into my life today.

Thank you Irene for loving me and encouraging me, and making me laugh. I will always remember you and love you. always.

Friday, August 14, 2009

signing off for the night - sated and satisfied.

Secret project is a l m o s t done!! I have had so much fun working on it. IT really is everything I have ever wanted to do. Everything. Now I just pray it will work out in the end. FINGERS CROSSED.

I could sit here and work forever - but poor Hexy is waiting for me.

I am in love with my life right now.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

INSANELY excited

dear dave,

working on my new project for my show. personal personal personal. But really exciting if it turns out. Who knows if it will. So much to question, but my hopes are high. This is the culmination of everything I love to do.

FINGERS CROSSED. Im anxious to see if it works!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


dear dave,

excited to start my new secret project today. Should be cool!

Grumpy morning, but hopefully thats all smoothed over.

Glad to have show details worked out. Now its a sprint until Sept 11. Nice to have that marker set.

Ordered new postcards to promote the show, and business cards. So much fun making new stuff, and getting it off to the printer. Excited to PUSH, and see where it gets me. I feel energized.

big plans + shoot with Dave again today. Should be blockbuster.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009


Please join me for my very first solo show, at Studio 4903!

BRANDDAVE : Prints / Drawings / Photographs / Shirts

Opening night reception is Friday, September 11, 6-9:30pm.
Show runs through to the following Thursday, September 17.

Hours: Sat-Su 11-4, M-Th 10-4, or by appointment (202/302-3209).

Studio 4903 is located at:
4903 Wisconsin Ave, NW (2nd floor)
WDC 20016

Hope to see you there, and please spread the word!! -Dave

dear dave,

I'm still stuck in neutral. I guess I'm not ready to put the peddle to the METAL and step up with some projects. Maybe I'm still in the thinking stage. I know its more like the stalling stage. I'm trying to protect myself from disappointment. Stalling for me always has those roots. Minimal effort = minimal regret.

Above is my new business card (green back, white front), made last night. I gave myself a night to let it settle, and decide if I really liked it. I will order a small amount. Cards can be tricky. I think I love it, but printing is always K E Y! And paper too.

Show is coming up SOON, and I really need to prepare. Two paths - content and promotion. Content feels constrained because of the lack of studio time. But I have some ideas forming. Promotion needs to happen NOW. I'm so scared nobody will come. I need to conjure an image of a fall studio, laughing happy people, and make that happen.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Baked & Wired refresh

dear dave,

hot hot hot today. Our first really hot day. So popsicles were in order at the Studio!

Off to Baked & Wired this afternoon, to refresh some of the prints. I don't know why, but I've been so hesitant about changing things up there. Most of me thinks its a good idea, since much of it has been sold. But I don't want to upset the apple cart. I've been going back and forth, back and forth.

Thrown off this morning after hearing from Mike. Not sure what is up with that whole situation, but it all feels really uncomfortable and unresolved. I want to move away from it.

Worked a lot on my shopping cart yesterday. Things are progressing, at least in my mind. I need to close the gap between wanting, buying, and paying. Lately I've been down on myself, because I have let that gap grow, instead of the other way around. I need to learn, and get better. (this is all so convoluted sounding)

Anyway. Its very Monday. Im scattered as usual.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

dear dave,

I'm leading a charmed life. I really have it made.

I'm doing what I love to do, and being rewarded for it. Im getting so much satisfaction from making things, and selling them. I have an amazing boyfriend, who I love so much. Who supports me. I have wonderful friends, who encourage me, and nurture me, and make me laugh so much. And I have a wonderful family, who wants the best for me.

Last but not least, a dog named Remi, who steals from me, and bites me, and brings me so much happiness and fulfillment.

Today was last printing day at the Corcoran for Summer 09. I good day spent finishing up Take-Out, which Im really happy with. A good foil for my other drawn work. Im really into the combination.

So printing is DONE for a few weeks. Sort of relieving, but I wish I had more time for my show. i will just have to make it work. Happy to have the small break. Spent the rest of the day at 4903, cleaning up my shamble-ish office. I feel good leaving it all clean, ready for a new chapter.

Friday, August 7, 2009

dear dave,

its one of those killer weather days. Im almost paralyzed. It conjures up so many memories and ideas. Its like they all flood inside of me, and I cant compute. Memories of school and friends and lunches home with my mom and Tina Campeni.

Shoot with dave was sort of a bust. Im seriously loosing my way. Sloppy pictures. BAD light. mistakes all around. I don't know what is going on. I found a few glimmers, and scheduled another shoot for today. I HOPING to get some shots for my show. Im excited to try again. Somehow I will figure it out.

Rushed printing yesterday, and Im not 100% with my print. I positioned the blood wrong. Now Im just trying to figure out if I can fix it, or need to reprint.

Must get back to Baked & Wired and swap out prints. This has been put off since Monday! UGH.

Last printing day is tomorrow. I feel pressure.

Thursday, August 6, 2009

printing projects for the day

friend of the Week (10)


Had a wonderful coffee with her yesterday. Always appreciate her support and encouragement. I even got her to model for me. She's a keeper! Check out her work here.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

dear dave,

Waiting for print pick-up, then coffee with Beverly.

Beautiful day today. Got up early because I had a splitting headache. What is with all these restless nights? They get me down.

Scrambled towards the end of the day yesterday. Each day feels like that. Im not sure why I am in this constant scramble mode.

Show is coming up SOON. Its like Sunday night, and monday is quickly approaching. Just like that actually. Just when I want to relax, and everybody else is (!), I need to PUSH hard. September will be here so quickly.

Todays shoot with Dave has been pushed back until tomorrow. Im feeling a bit more focused, so we will so how that translates. I want to get some shots to mix in my show. Straight and strong. A counterpoint. Hopefully I can pull something off.

all my posts are getting so process oriented, and whiney. Where us the fun Dave? Still here.

This morning I was walking in, and smelled this amazing air. Summer yet Fall. I was thinking that its almost been a whole year since I left BSUR, and since I came to the studio. Its cool to see the growth, and transition. Funny to think about myself then, here. In my little office, facing the window, drawing. Im so settled now. Established. Its a good feeling. I want more!

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

I really love this picture! I could marry it.

My eyes just go back and forth - his face / dogs face. his face / dogs face. Its perfection.
dear dave,

SUCKY NIGHT last night. Went to Whitlows with Hexy, and came home to watch tv, then bed. NOW COMES THE SUCKY PART: Indigestion with Insomnia. A deadly combination. I think it was the burger (with the brownies afterwards). I felt so unsettled, so tired, and so anxious to sleep. But I just couldn't. It was serious torture. I feel so sorry for people who suffer from this regularly. It drove me nuts!

Work is humming along. i got a new commission, finished up some new prints to swap out at Baked & Wired, and generally feel in demand. Shaw Dog shirts sold well over the weekend, which makes me feel great. Happy they went over well.

I have a lot going on. Shoot with Dave tomorrow, and I don't feel prepared, or ready, or whatever that means. Hitting a lull. I convince myself to mix it up, but blah out when the moment is there. We'll see.

MUST get some work done. Was away all day working at the Corcoran. Hard to be here, and have so much stuff I want to do. But happy for the problem, and super happy with the way things have been going!

new print from today.

Monday, August 3, 2009

new print

24" x 24"

who doesnt love a seriously cute boy?

dear dave,

things are humming along with branddave. I'm feeling great about selling work. Everyday now I have new calls from Baked and Wired. ITs really exciting. Time to expand and grow!

MUST get a lot done at the Corcoran this week. Last week of the summer, so I need to make it count.
Plans to work on my site as well. REV up those engines.


need to figure out vacation, and time away. Need to slow down, relax, and enjoy the last few weeks of the summer. What a great year! The best in years.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

This is a picture of the movie "poster" I did for Artomatic. i submitted all my little shorts, and they asked for poster art as well. I saw the poster up, but have no idea when or if the movies ever played. Anyway, it was really cool to see the poster. Wish I had gotten a few...
dear dave,

super excited to be selling prints. Baked & Wired is a big success. I'm loving it.

Not so great day at the Corcoran today. Probably because I spent ALL my time yesterday working on, and not enough time planning my printing.

I only have a few more printing sessions before the summer semester ends. Its been a good summer, but I need to squeeze in every last minute of printing. Show coming up, and I need NEW.

Excited to make some big cuts on the site. I needed to cut out the old brush, so new seeds could establish themselves. I left last night feeling good and energized. Like I'm on a good path (finally!) Ive been feeling so muddled lately.

I'm trying to establish a structure that allows me to add new work, and have it blend well with the old. Blogs are so good for that. They work really well at cataloging the past, while taking on the new.

Website is tough. Every time I have a new drawing or photograph, I dont know where to put it. And it always leads to massive redesigns. I need to come up with a living design, that honors the old while easily taking on the new. And I need to get my store up and running.

Things are going well though. I really feel good about my position. I just need to make work. Constantly.