Thursday, July 18, 2019

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change
Courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference
I am not like I was before
I thought that nothing would change me
I was not listening anymore
Still you continued to affect me
I was not thinking anymore
Although I said I still was
I'd said I don't want anymore
Because of bad experience
And now I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I have not seen freedom before
And I did not expect to
Don't let me forget now I'm here
Help me to help you to behold you
I started off with many friends
And we spent a long time talking
I thought they meant every word they said
But like everyone else they were stalling
And now they seem so different
They seem so different
They seem so different
I should have hatred for you
But I do not have any
And I have always loved you
Oh you have taught me plenty
The whole time I'd never seen
All you had spread before me
The whole time I'd never seen
All I'd need was inside me
Now I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different
I feel so different

-Sinead O'connor

Wednesday, May 8, 2019

Tired and drained after a long day in a long week (only wednesday) trying to finish up two projects that are completely divergent.

Print of the two dogs in DC for mothers day deadline 9sunday) and all the products for Shop Made (deadline NOW).  I'm never good a splitting my time / attention.  I remember in college I would study hard for one exam, and hardly lift a finger for the next.  Of course that cant happen here.

Both projects going fine, but just require a lot of work and attention.  Anxious to get the Shop Made stuff out the door!  Will be a big relief. 

And commissions - I just don't know!  Maybe I should just stop them and refuse them for awhile.  I know they are not worth all the angst and stress and effort I put into them.  This drawing was brutal.  I must have drawn the one dog 100 times.  Then finally, finally, finally I got him.  UGH!!!!!

on top of all, car is in the shop.  So walking to studio and home (with emma) can be an extra challenge. 

PATIENCE with her...

Thursday, April 25, 2019

quick week, thursday already.

Working on production prints for SM after finishing the girl, and quick drawings for Integral.  Forsythia was picked up, and out of my life.  When will I print that again?? I don't think for awhile.

Next up, Fitz and a mothers day commission that came in today.

Emma acting so unsettled today.  Made me unsettled.  She keeps moving position.  poor baby.

Reading through my epic diary I started my freshman year and carried on all through college and beyond.  Very interesting and familiar.  30 years ago.  Things are different of course, but how I feel is so similar.

Friday, April 19, 2019

Wrapping up a bizarro week full of twists and turns.  Glad to report that all things ended well, and I feel back on track.

Forsythia - DONE!
Farley - DONE!

next up is the little beagle / girl commission, and "Fitz"

But most my time will be spent getting prints ready for ShopMade.

All good!  to the future and beyond.

Tuesday, April 16, 2019

Major hurdle, taxes finished!

S T I L L working on forsythia print.  Hopefully will be finshed up soon.

Thursday, April 11, 2019


taxes loom

no email from ...

but I think I got the shirt/press/temp./peely/crackly thing worked out.  I think!

Sounds like dad is recovering according to schedule, which is good news

And emma bounced back after a few days ago.

No final word yet on commission, and still waiting to hear from ..., so we wait

REMARKABLE to see how long I've been writing this blog!  I just went way way back, to April '08, working on little videos for the 48 Hr film, and giant prints on wood for my first artomatic.  and still working days at BSUR.  amazing.

Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Great meeting with ShopMadeDC today.  excited to get started with them.  All the familiar DC artists there.  Hope they are succeeding, and I can too.  Seems like it.  Best part is that it's two locations.

Anxious to get my recycled screens out.  Seems like it's going to be cost effective.

Thanking about a sale, or something to kick start some orders.  Feel like I flailing.  Except I have a few things to finish that I haven't even started.  Mixed message.

TAXES are due soon.  The worst part of year by far.  I hate seeing $$$ go.

Thinking about The dc art fair, but it's so ridiculously expensive.  And would I get in? Something to think about.

Tuesday, April 9, 2019

Packed up screens (will be a fortune to ship) and cards for Trohv.  Still plan to go out there, but put off for awhile again.

Got some of forsythia worked on, but not enough

Emma doing ok as usual after another spell in middle of the night.  UGH

Monday, April 8, 2019

STILL working on forsythia reprint, only because I put it off for a few days to finish more pressing things:  mothers Day cards.  VP had good sale, so I spent time thursday and Friday getting new(ish) ones pulled together.  Happy with how they all turned out (I think)

Saturday at the studio I spent the majority of my time deleting emails that had built up over the fall, and had transferred over to my new computer.  10k!  most of it junk, but of course I had to weed out what wasn't.  Found a much easier formula, alphabetical.  Since most junk were duplicates, I could find and delete huge chunks.  Much easier.

Took emma to rock creek and she went nuts.  she loves it so much, but gets herself worked up into a frenzy.  I don't know what the formula is, but she passes some limit and gets even more crazed and hyper.  Made the super smart decision to loop back through the woods instead of the road, so she could stay off leash.  Helped a lot, because when she is leashed and like that, I get so mad at her, and she gets even worse. 

Back to studio today, and tiny hole in screen that I saw Friday had ripped across the entire middle.  Frustrating, but typical.  Contacted company to recycle the 4 broken ones I have, and get a discount, which is good all around.  Bet the shipping cancels it out.  Saved the box, which was smart smart smart.  Fingers crossed its not a fortune through usps.

Thursday, April 4, 2019

Working on Forsythia reprint, which is a long slog!  It's a new size, so I need to remake all the positives.  yikes.  Could this project be any more difficult?  yes, the board is slightly warped.  Fingers crossed it all works out, after all the work I'm going to put into it.

Nicer warmer weather means all the plants go outside, and my studio has some extra room.  anxious to spring clean.  This place is a mess of storage.  and my desk needs a lift. 

Nice time with Kim and Erin yesterday.  The traffic getting there almost killed me.  What should have taken 15 minutes took an hour. Thank god I don't have to deal with that every day.  The whole thing left me frazzled.

Tuesday, April 2, 2019

Sad to see the blog withering on the vine.  I try to post more regularly, only to stop again.  Maybe I can keep it up?

Working on drawing a commission that has been put off for too long.  It's a hard one, that's why Ive put it off.  Not so good at capturing people.  Or at least I don't think I am.  Have a tiny little shred of a drawing that might work.

Amazed at how time has gone by.  Lately I'm really feeling it.  Things have shifted.  So many good friends and connection have faded away, or been broken.  Corcoran, old studios, bsur, Story District, buzz, artomatic, peregrine, parcheesi, Sue.  I'm feeling untethered.  The only things grounding me are Hexy and Emma, and my parents.  

Anyway, hopefully, I'll have more to say tomorrow, and the next day too.

Wednesday, March 20, 2019

this drawing may look simple, but it's the result of at last 50 or 60 different versions, and hours of angst.

I started out with a bunch of photos of farley, and drew and drew and drew.  Just trying to somehow get his endearing face, and something that would please my client.  In the end, i'm looking for some kind of magical formula.  A rythme to the drawing that is impossible to duplicate.  Happy with how it came out.  Hope she is too!