Friday, October 31, 2008

dear dave,

lots of fun at old europe. I cant wait for 2015, to see where we will all be then. its an exciting thing to think about. I don't think about the future much.

Framing drama continues. And wall planning. But all will work out great. Excited to see.

The studio has been transformed. It's nice to see it all polished up.

off to utrect - and beyond!!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

dear dave,

good morning (11:36)

how are you? ( I am fine)

lots to do (as always)

orchid drying up? (I hope not)

framing going to be difficult (maybe not afterall!!)

frustrated? (a little)

anxious about sunday morning, and saturday afternoon. And finishing things. and starting things.

It will work out. it always does. always.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

dear dave,

feeling half-ass lately. Like I can't get the A - or I'm not even trying to get the A.

Frustrated over printing. And paper. And framing. Hate framing. it all seems so complicated. Such a process. Such a (commitment). That's the real problem.

Left for work feeling very edgy. What to show? How to Show? Red Tree! Cord. Im running out the clock, then shocked. No time! I can't do it! What was I thinking?

Oh the games we play. The self sabotage. it's all so obvious, and oblique. Like the triangle.

So I have an hour now to prepare, and a few hours to print. 2 days to 'frame". And other things. Important things. Maybe its just the fact that the weekend is busy is what has me going. That always makes me anxious. KNOWING I will not have time to relax. Oh well.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

dear dave,

work went ok yesterday. classic actually. you have something in mind, and it ALWAYS changes once you start printing it. Printing on the pegboard was a challange. Obviously it doesnt work like paper or wood. I guess I didn't know how it would work out.

Lots of competition for space. Frustrating at first, but it cleared out as the time went by. next open studio is tomorrow. Hopefully I can get more done.

I did some ancillary prints, and like those (almost more them the larger ones). Maybe just show those. We'll see.

Tonight - gossip girls take 17th street. Should be cold, and fun.

Monday, October 27, 2008

dear dave

working towards show. Full speed ahead. Dont know what will be accomplished. i guess we will find out.

where will I be? What will I be doing? I guess it's for me to decide. I'm deciding.

Friday, October 24, 2008

for evah

dear dave,

mission accomplished!

I LOVE my pegboard. love it. and all my little hooks and accessories. I'm so glad I got the mixed pac. Everything about it is perfect.

Thanks to H for helping me. you da best!!

Thursday, October 23, 2008

dear dave,

feeling much much better. antibiotics work!!

bought my peg board. can't wait to install. garage fetish in full swing.

lots to do, but its all doable.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008


dear dave,

the overstimulation is exciting. I'm waiting for the darkness, when NOTHING is interesting to me.

Lately I am so inspired by E V E R Y T H I N G.

I just want to record and gather it all.

Red dumpsters.
birds on wires.
paving stones.
Tube lights.
Peg boards.
little notebooks.
garrett neff (!!!)
used bookstore smell.
plywood (!!!)
tin foil.
grass seed
chipped paint
rubber cement
little useless staplers
running dogs
writhing snakes
old magazines
cloudy days
80's beats
bee hives
old polo ads
polo cologne (!!!!!!)
gumball machines
mickey mouse


dear dave,

lots to work on. sorting and planning. drawing and writing. avoiding and napping.

mini show at studio coming up, and must plan red tree.

warm shivers just flew thru my body. maybe its time to shower, and move on.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


dear dave,

some of the doom and gloom has lifted, and feel healthier today. See the light at the end of the tunnel. Still need to hear back from Harry, but I'm assuming he has good news.

Actually don't want to stay in bed this morning. A radical new idea.

What have I missed? It's time to start finding out...

Monday, October 20, 2008


dear dave,

the burka was a joke, but maybe not too far off. Sick Thursday, then Friday, then Saturday, then Sunday, and now monday. Revolving symptoms. Now I just feel feverish, and my stomach is in perpetual upset. Finally seeing doctor this afternoon.

Nothing much more to report. pretty much shut down. Creatively and emotionally. Feel blah. Hopefully, the doctor will have some answers.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

dear dave

curses to ronnie for giving me his cold. i could see it coming Saturday, entering cliffs APT. Now that I'm stricken, I must try to limit the spread of the disease. back on with the burka.

Im a day behind this week, because Monday was spent away from the office. Sort of happy its wednesday, but would feel content if it was Tuesday.

Economy economy economy. Its all thats on.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

admit with explanation

dear dave

I went the wrong way on metro this morning - and it took me 3 stops to realize my mistake.

Grand hopes for Remi's ear, and my stomach. Lets hope medicine works.

Plan to switch gyms, and start ornaments. And make prints. And take more snapshots. (I love snapshots)

Feeling good and content and relaxed. Like my new lighting - and the birds are singing. My door is slightly ajar, but I can deal.

Monday, October 13, 2008

dear dave

fun weekend. sort of productive. skipped class again saturday, to work on more drawings. Trying to get some work done on that front. Slow going, but made some progress this morning. Now need to build on that progress.

My office has become my new inspiration.

I had grand plans to get a pet bird (!) but quickly nixed the idea for obvious reasons. I just got all caught up in the idea when I saw a neat cage at Miss Pixies. After I decided to get the cactus that I didn't get. And all the other stuff I want to buy, but luckily have talked myself out of.

Spending is very much like eating. I just have to teach myself that holding back will make me feel better then indulging. Its uphill, but it works (except for the doughnut and ice cream yesterday).

It feels like pre-fall, then all of a sudden it will be fall. Weeks go by fast. I want to put on the breaks, but I really should be slamming on the internal accelerator. I have been in stall mode for too long now. Its time to jump.

ok - back to drawing

Friday, October 10, 2008

Thursday, October 9, 2008

dear dave
things progress, slowly. Took remi to the park the other day. Strange, because she didnt jump in the creek like she ALWAYS does. Maybe she knows something. She can be very insightful...

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

dear dave

a good few days - now back to work. working on my office a bit. big plans for red tree, and the show. snowmen. golden girls. hank's cabin. new gym. crispy leaves. and more water/less coffee.

still not feeling 100%. Maybe need to go to the doctor.

Happy to know that Lucy is well, and things are pretty stable. A few days of unstability are enough.

cio fo now

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

today im 40! happy birthday to me.

The Year Ahead

Forecast for October 2008 to October 2009

When a Quarter Moon occurs in your Return chart, as it does this year, you are at some sort of a turning point in your life, in terms of personal growth. Events that occur this year act as catalysts that get you in touch with some important issues in your emotional life. Your emotions run high, and mood swings or identity crises are possible. There may be some kind of conflict in your life arising from a great urge to do something different. It promises to be a busy, dynamic, and significant period in your life.

With the Sun and Mercury square Jupiter, there will be times when you are inclined to overdo things or to promise more than you can deliver due to an optimistic, but not necessarily realistic, attitude. Your eyes may be bigger than your stomach. You may feel vague restlessness and discontent with life as it is, although you are generally in a happy mood. Elevated moods could also be rather unstable, as they may not be based on reality. Channeled well, this energy can represent creative power.

In your Solar Return chart this year, Mercury and the Sun trine the North Node, and you will be making contact through learning, communicating, and mental pursuits. This indicates an intellectually stimulating year in which the exchange of ideas with others figures prominently. You are likely to form new relationships or connections that further your spiritual growth, or to enhance existing relationships with a spirit of camaraderie. People in authority regard you favorably. Events take place in which you feel like you are moving forward and growing into a new phase of your life.

Venus in harmonious aspect to Jupiter, Saturn, and Uranus suggests that you are more accepting and understanding of your friends and lovers this year. Contentedness in love is likely to figure and to attract positive circumstances (and people) into your life. This influence can indicate favorable outcomes when it comes to legal affairs, education, and travel. This year, you’re bound to enjoy increased social opportunities as well as a boost in your personal popularity and magnetism. Others are looking on you favorably, particularly friends and lovers (or potential lovers). You are more friendly, optimistic, and big-hearted than usual. A cheerful and hopeful outlook increases your chances of gaining cooperation from others. This is a sociable, and perhaps self-indulgent, time when the pursuit of pleasure is one of your high priorities! You could find that you are more open and trusting of friends and lovers, and that you easily win others‘ trust. Healthy speculation is favored. Financial benefits may come your way. Some people fall in love under this influence. Certain elements of your social and financial life are stabilized, secured, and more reliable this year. You may solidify a romantic relationship under this influence, or become involved with a mature partner.

This could be a strong year for financial undertakings involving electronics, technology, the internet, metaphysics, and the arts, as well as group activities. You have a taste for the offbeat this year, and this energy can bring sudden or unexpected romance into your life, perhaps a scenario that feels like love at first sight.

With Jupiter in harmony to Saturn at the time of your birthday this year, a period of constructive accomplishment is ahead. In general, you are practical, realistic, and your judgment is especially sound--and you derive much satisfaction from your work. The key to harnessing this wonderful energy is to identify and find pleasure in the simple things that make you happy. A nice balance between optimism and practicality is with you this year.

In the year ahead, financial, social, and romantic experiences are especially rewarding. Your more lenient and contented attitude towards others tends to bring positive circumstances into your life. A tendency to take on more than you can realistically handle should be watched, however. Your social life and finances stabilize and satisfy overall.

2008 is a Number Nine year for you. Ruled by Mars. This is a year of completion and transition. It is a time when we need to let go of things that no longer serve their purpose, and hold on to things that have a future. It is a time of cleaning out dead wood, not necessarily for new beginnings. It can be a time when a burden has been taken off your shoulders, and it can be a year of giving of yourself. Advice - let go of things that are holding you back, give of yourself and express your sympathetic, compassionate side.

2009 will be a Number One year for you. Ruled by the Sun. This is a year of action. The seeds you plant now, you will reap later. Others might find you less sociable, as you are busier than ever and you focus on your activities and your needs. Still, you are outgoing and your initiative is stronger than ever. Advice - Stand alone, take action, start fresh, express independence.

Friday, October 3, 2008

dear dave

can't seem to make myself healthy. If it's not my throat, its my stomach. Always something. Feel sort of shaky. Sore throat.

Went to new VIDA this morning. interesting space. feels so new. The light was so wrong, but so MODERN. I would join if it wasnt for one thing.

found the above "piece" on the street. I AM A SCAVENGER lately. Funny, I thought I gave that ALL up when I moved into the Hudson. But it has seeped back. its me. Ive made peace. Anyway, this was sitting at the bus station, and people had used it as a garbage can. i have no idea what it is or was, but I love it. I hauled it back, and its in my office. Somehow its perfect.

Its so beautiful outside.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

dear dave,

i'm happy to report the cabinet was conquered, and i'm very happy with it. my vision has materialized. from lowly throwaway to cabin/garage/warehouse chic.
3 coats of paint, lots of angst, several hardware store trips, and a few old favorite magazine clippings, and we are golden.

I'm very happy with the way it turned out. The top part, the part I kept from being tossed aside, is now reserved for VERY special items. Precious things. Only the best for you top. you are now king.

okay, back to drawing. and maybe a brownie.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008