Monday, September 30, 2013

dear dave,

eyes are bugging after a few hours of way too much screen time.  Working on reformatting my print pages, and I'm really happy with the result.  Much more in the spirit of how I like to display.  Feels kind of inspired by pinterest, but actually much more BRIEF!

Emotional and full weekend, but a lot of things were accomplished, passed through, and dealt with.

1716 14 St. (3rd Fl)

So much angst and conflict and obsession over deciding to / not too move the studio upstairs.  Now that I've had a full day of the decision, I feel a little more resolved.  Only will get better with time.  Such a conflict.  I really just COULD NOT decide what to do.

Great afternoon Sunday helping Sue with packing.  I was crazy impressed by her HOME.  It really deserves to be in all caps, because it is quite the masterpiece space.  Everything had it's perfect place.  And everything was perfect.  A vast collection of things that all added up to something amazing and great > SUE.  I was just so impressed and proud.  I could see her soul there.  Of course we hate to dismantle it, but she has to move on to another phase.  Living alone out there just can't work anymore.

Anyway, all was so clear and organized and cut and dry.  Walking in I had NO idea what to expect.  Walking out I just felt so inspired.  She is really amazing, and I haven't focused on that for way too long.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

ALL my love to Mr. Hansel today.  What a great boy.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

LONG day at the corcoran.  2nd time here for the FALL 2013.

really strange vibe:  no students, empty open studio, disorganized studio.  Like a parallel universe.

Finished my long overdue print for Geoff.  Came out GREAT, but took MAJOR time -- all day.  14 colors, 5 screens.  I'm tired, but SOOOOOOOOOO glad it's finished, and that I'm SUPER happy with it.

now home.

Friday, September 20, 2013




not such a great day (so far).  TOO much ice coffee and not enough email, from ... about ...  NOW.

it's been 10 days, and the anticipation IS KILLING ME  All I want to do is S C R E A M, but

STARVED for content and distraction.  My work is so constipated and stymied.  Things need to resolve.  people need to get back to me, I need to progress and grow and move.

how can I push this forward without being the one to push this forward?
print set up - they look so mysterious.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

photography is so much fun.

shoot with kevin today went so much better then few weeks ago.  Weather was awesome. he was in a good mood, I was in a good mood.  Made the great decision to drive out to the park and get some nature in the background.  A good change of pace from out last shoots.

Shirts looked (pretty good) --- work in progress!! --but still happy with the outcome, after pouring over them, when I told myself I wouldn't, but then COULD NOT help myself and did.  It's like Christmas morning when I upload to my computer.  I really really love editing my photos, and sort of, kind of fall in love with my subjects. Ok, crush.  Something is gained, or gotten or revealed, or exposed.  And I feel all tender and loving and sweet and compassionate towards them (him).  Dave > Peter > Bobby > Geren > now KEVIN.  xoxoxo

kevin today


Wednesday, September 18, 2013


on speakeasy drawings!


took too much time!

several versions scrapped!


Tuesday, September 17, 2013

good day drawing - salvaged after 2.

this morning I was determined, then went off the rails, got determined again, went off the rails for longer, more determination, back off, etc.  The determination slowly diminished, and the off the rails increased.

I pulled back on course this afternoon, and made 3 solid SE illustrations.  Happy with my work.

must leave now (of course, juices in full flow), to tend to remi and jimmy and gym and hexy.

tomorrow is another day (to fuck up)!

what a pessimist!!  jeez.

Monday, September 16, 2013


what do you think ? ? ?

dear dave,

Saturday went well (17th street festival)

quick thoughts:

poor hex, having to deal with all the bitches being bitchy about nothing.

not such a fan of being under a tent all day, stuck

kept getting annoyed by our politician neighbors, blocking us out front.

wish we had another table for the side.  Had a corner, but didn't maximize

cards were a big hit, hex was right in insisting I bring more

people like looking through the cards when they are away, off to the side

I make these semi-dirty shirts, think they are funny, and then am really embarrassed when people see them, and want to hide them, and realize I will never sell them, and then forget, repeat, next show.

Always get so thirsty!

2 for $30 works well

we had way too many $1, as expected

always have the urge to leave the booth, and its always hard to make eye contact

thought that was Beverly's son -- stupid Dave!

great seeing Amy!

Was so nice to leave without waiting, but sucked going back for the car, hungry and tired

poor hex, having to deal with all the bitches being bitchy about nothing. (bears repeating)

Friday, September 13, 2013


ready for tomorrow, hope it goes well.

not much going on -- blocked and bottled up.  ready for some moooovement.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

better day -

uptick in energy and focus.  Made TONS of shirts for saturday.

no word about upstairs, which is making me feel edgy.  Just have to be positive.

remi > gym > pizza > PR.  let the night begin.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

hump day!

feeling a little revived after making a ton on shirts for saturday.  It's a little bit of drudgery.

sluggish allllllllllllll daaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyy.

hot and muggy and feeling it.  Watering the beds this morning, I was already feeling it.

enjoyed meeting Leigh's dogs, and got all my cards in without incident.  And made lots of shirts.  But still feeling a little unaccomplished.

Lack of email is getting me down.  Sales momentum has way slowed.  Feeling unsteady about that.  Never good.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

ending the day in a blahhhhhhh mood :(

energy waned.  plans fizzled.  what was exciting became painful and forced.

- - - - - -
shoot with kevin today not so good.  Shirts didn't fit right, light has changed, and Kevin seemed out of sorts.  My big plans to revamp will have to be delayed and rethought.

plans for upstairs are progressing, but not without bumps. We'll see how this week shakes out.

Excited for 17th street fair saturday.  Just need to buckle down and produce for it.

MCA seems to be dying.  Not sure how I feel about that.  It's been declining for awhile now, but here we are in Sept, and there is little enthusiasm for Open Studios.  hmmmm

are we still stuck in summer mode?  The energy of the city seems way down.  Where is everybody?  Where are emails, orders, inquiries, replies ?  I can't stand this isolated feeling.

Saturday, September 7, 2013

weird first day back at the corcoran (fall 2013 semester).

I got there too early, nobody was there, and matt told me only 5 were enrolled (4 repeaters and 1 actual student).  Lucky the class even went through.  Bazaar really, the summer was FULL.

Managed to get work done, with some time hiccups, and also managed to stay past "closing" to finish a PARK mini.  Really weird, Matt just left without turning anything off, or closing the door.  After I had already packed up, and ate a quick lunch, loaded my car, and started to drive away, I decided: why not stay and finish??

So I did.

Weird start -- I'm sooooo ready to be done with the Corcoran.  So tired of all the problems and driving and schedule and bs.  Really excited to have finally reached this conclusion, and to have a plan.

Friday, September 6, 2013

Thursday, September 5, 2013

coming out to Joe was scary
quitting capital presentations was scary
moving to Q st. with Cord was scary
Adopting Butter was scary
Getting a new Miata was scary
Moving upstairs on Q St. was scary
Moving to P St was scary
Joining RESULTS was scary
Going on gay adventure travels trips (by myself) was scary
Getting Remi as a tiny puppy was scary
Moving to the Hudson was scary
Posting personal ads on craigslist was scary
meeting Hexy was scary
Quitting bsur was scary
Renting studio space with Gayle was scary
posting ads for models was scary
investing money on shirts and cards and paint and a computer was scary

Moving my studio upstairs and quitting the corcoran IS scary.  But I have to do it!


Such an amazing, and rich path.  Each step has led to the next.  Hard, but necessary.

Wow, am I lucky.  

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


so I will.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013


house of cards, hope it doesn't come tumblin' down.

things going well, but not stellar.  I just keep checking email for some things I've been expecting and hoping to come through.  But they don't.


SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much drawing to accomplish, but today was not the day (again).  I am so f*cking helpless, and hapless, and frustrating.  One day, I will get it accomplished, and move on to the next impossible task. *

*good problems...

meanwhile, I SPEND SPEND SPEND on cards and shirts and hats and postcards and rent and ink and envelopes and pens and labels and screws transfers and wire and pant and tape and pretzels and coffee and and and and.

Monday, September 2, 2013


(and it's labor day, and I worked.  When I have time off, and Hex is working, and it's too hot to take Remi out, I work by default.  oh well)

excited to see where the future takes me!  almost a little scarier now, then 5 years ago.  more at stake, more to loose.  but things have always been on an upward path.  slow or fast (then slow again), but always up.

so glad I did what I did > leaving bsur behind, and all the bs.  Was a good risk, and such a positive step.

to bigger and better things! ! ! ! ! ! !  ! ! ! !  ! ! !!!!