Saturday, May 31, 2008

I am an apple


dear dave
no news from artomatic, which is kind of disappointing, but not unexpected.

class started today, but I didn't make it in. Worked on new video last night, and was in the mood to work on it more today. I need to start a new print project, something to be excited about. Maybe I will work more on wood. (I'm sure I will work more on wood).

Its raining outside, and Andrea Mitchell is barking on the tv. I'm going to go back to work on videos.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Friday, May 23, 2008


dear dave
reading magazines always really inspires me. That and coffee and sun. And Bjork. And good old madonna!
went for a walk down the canal, and felt calm and excited. Want to take more pictures, and make more movies, and draw.

Weekend coming up. Free time to relax and enjoy all the possibility ahead. And maybe go back to artomatic. Scared to see the state of my poster pile. Will they be strewn all across the 10th floor? Soiled and Crinkled. I hope not.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

turkey breast

dear dave
what a drag. wrote a post this afternoon, but blogger lost it. now I start over.

Fun weekend at artomatic. Bartender Friday night. Greeter saturday night. It is such a cool thing. Inspiring the way it all works. Its so cool to see all the different kinds of people coming, and participating. Im glad Im a part.

Still stinging about my booth. I can never get over it. It just sucks. Brought rubbber bands for the posters, which is a major improvement. Saw a lot walk out the door as I was greeting. Really exciting. Glad I did it.

Want to get back into creating. Excited to work on more videos, and upload from all my tapes. Just spent some time looking at my video diary. So funny. And boring. But the little details are fun. Going to chaos. Working on my bad. Tasty and blonde slacker. After a half hour I was too bored watching it all. Maybe in smaller doses.

But I like the connection to the past. My old apartment, and aspirations. So many improvements and changes over the years. Its nice to be able to see them clearly. Not that things were bad then. just different. We all grow. Its nice to be able to see it.

my pizza is ready.

ps - excited to try with the print show coming up. THe prize is cool. I would like that.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

mountain due

dear dave,
not a lot to say. artomatic going ok. Making peace with it. no word on movie. waiting. the sun is out. Im happy about that. thinking about the summer. How to spend the time. Time to make plans. What is it that I REALLY want to do. I need to figure that out.

Friday is artists night. looking forward to that.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

alone in the dark
he searches for a branch
but nobody is there to help

all around is shit and garbage
but everybody knows
its not there to stay

making plans never
fits the size
you think you are

maybe its best
to dream with paint
and dont look close
at the dark black box
that hides you

Friday, May 9, 2008

I am so incredibly tired I cant think straight. Went to bed early last night, but still am behind.

artomatic opening tonight! where will I find the energy?

Thursday, May 8, 2008

rainbow suspenders

I think it was third grade, but it might have been forth.

Somehow I was shopping at JC Penny's alone. Maybe I rode my bike there? I dont remember that detail either.

But I spied a pair of rainbow suspenders for sale, in the boy's department, lower level, under the staircase. I can still see them displayed there. They were like the ones MORK wore, only without the buttons.

I wanted them - but I knew that was weird, or wrong, or somehow just off.

I think I let a few days pass, with the suspenders on my mind. Were they me? Could I get away with wearing something like that? No - dont waste your money. Do it. Dont do it. Drop it. But I want them.

Finally, I got them. Im pretty sure I bought them myself - but with what money?

I wanted to wear them to school right away. I decided to match them with a white button down shirt (sleeves rolled up), and jeans. I remember very clearly all the hesitation, with all the excitement laced in. I knew that it was a potential disaster.

I don't really remember being made fun of. I think all my friends reaction were pretty neutral. But I do remember that I only wore them once.

The biggest thing that sticks out to me is the fact that I wanted to be different, and I was willing to be different. Not too crazy, but noticable. The idea scared me but excited me more. I gave myself no choice.

Thursday, May 1, 2008


dear dave
h asleep. i'm tired. excited and anxious about friday. hope I get a good genre. hope i feel inspired. hope I can do the technical stuff. should I rent a camera? Poster came out GREAT. prints coming out well. things are coming together. I am happy.