Monday, October 31, 2011

dear dave,

back at the corcoran this afternoon - but feeling super blah.  Doing a reprint, which is becoming kind of boring.  I'm going through the motions.

I need to do something new!

Great productive weekend spent drawing in the studio.  Happy to have _ _ _ _ done!  A big breakthrough.  So so so so happy.

Busy week filling in blanks, and hopefully launching christmas cards.  They arrive wednesday, and I've resolved to photograph them all.  We'll see.

Have lot's of upcoming drawing things, which makes me a little wary.  I'll make it through.


Think I'll finally activate my 4s.  It's been sitting on our counter for almost 3 weeks.  Crazy and ridiculous.  i just can't seem t commit.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

home depot
transfer paper
bad light
bad models
phone calls
cranberry juice
portable heaters
law and order SVU
8:00 phone call
tree limbs


Friday, October 28, 2011

I've been so blog neglectful! Shame on me.

Tuesday night --high heel race. Tuesday--photoshoot with Doug, and what else? (can't remember)

Wednesday -pandas and Christmas card

Thursday- dr., pandas, shirts, and elf dog Christmas card.

Days fly by. I get too focused on few things. Most of my to do list gets pushed to the next day.

Im happy pandas are done! And most of new Christmas card. And new postcards. Now onto the cc, and photo editing, and prep for Saturday. Weeks tumble by. I feel like I have no control over my creative self. Happily though, feeling better about my work. Or at least able to draw some again.

(writing this on my phone, hex sleeping beside me) hard to write on a phone, so it's a little stilted.)

Ok--more later.

Monday, October 24, 2011

dear dave,

here I am at the corcoran waiting on screens to dry.  Another monday!!  This seems to be the best time to write.

So - the weekend.  Pretty good, but not great.  I felt a little out of place, or in the way.  Just generally awkward.  With Tom's studio closed, it felt like the flow was really altered.

There were great times when I was happy to talk to people, selling shirts and cards, and flowing.  Enjoying it all.  Then other times I didn't know where to be, where to stand.  How much to engage with people.  I felt shy and embarrassed.  Of course I hate going into that mode, but it's so familiar. My go-to.

Sold some work very happily, but I still feel really anxious about all that I have, and I'm itching to unload more. I really think I need to clear the decks (more) in order to move forward.  It's hard to feel motivated to make more (new) when I haven't sold what I have.  blah blah blah.   But I'm super happy with my display, and overall work.  All worked well together.

Cards a big hit, and shirts too as always.  Humor always wins the day.  I need to drill that into my head.  people like to laugh, and it's soooooo great listening to all the silliness and comments as people went through all my work.  A huge plus that I need to focus on.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Today I could have done all my work in half the time. I finished most everything for the weekend early--so I fiddled to fill the time. Of course I could have worked on next-up projects, but that would be way too forward thinking!

Besides, I'm too distracted by thinking about the weekend. So much seems to hinge on it. All that work layed out. It's kind of scary.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

dear dave,

I feel spent!

Rushed yesterday to hang all my prints, but took a break mid-day to go to spa world with hexy.  We got free passes, and needed to use them up, so Wednesday at 3:30 seemed as good a time as any.

Spa World is a Korean bathhouse 40 minutes from DC.  Surreal and great. You get naked, and hang out in tubs, jetted pools, steam rooms & saunas.  Eat a little, then do it all again.  Of course there are parts for men & women together, but we stayed pretty much in the men's area.

We drove home in the rain, kind of zoned out, and smelling like chlorine.  It was all really weird but nice, and very memorable.  I love doing new stuff like that.  I've really stepped back from adventure the past few years.  I miss it.

Back to hanging today, and 80% done.  Such a big job that takes a lot out of me mentally.  I feel kind of foggy, and its only 1pm.  Shooting with speakeasy soon, so that such wake me up, and take me out of this fuzzy place I'm suddenly stuck in.

Shoot with Bobby was really fun tuesday!  want more!

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Monday, October 17, 2011

dear dave,

another monday!

This weekend is MCA Open studios, so there is a lot to do to prepare.

I was at the Corcoran for most of the day today.  Messed up my print.

Was inspired to do another Roadside for this weekend.  All was in place.  Inks were saved from the summer, positives made.  I carefully tested the colors, to make sure I had them all worked out.  Then proceeded to use the DARK green instead of the mid tone for the bulk of the print.  What an idiot.  Still works, but off.  Blah!  So frustrating.  Fatal errors suck!

Made another bossy squirrel, then left.

Back at studio now, planning on taking off.  If I don't I'll get stuck here working on stuff, because I don't want to leave after just getting here.

Typical pattern would be to turn on music, surf the web, and work.  But Ive promised myself the gym, so I'm off.

miss Remi post bath

Saturday, October 15, 2011

dear dave,

wilson fair today just so so.  i tell myself any money is good money.  Maybe a few good connections.  Great to see Gayle again.

and great to be back in the wonderful tenley.  ft. Reno speaks to my soul.  i just love it there.  many great photo shoot memories with Dave K.  Lost days after leaving bsur, walking to the bookstore and gym.  late nights driving home.  Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.

Its still early, so I need to salvage the day.  Maybe coffee with Hex (SAINT) and remi.

(hex helped me all day today.  He is my rock.)

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Coffee with jen, octoberfest dinner with sam and barb and Cheryl. You would think I'd get a lot done between the two, but that was not the case.

Bummer drawing day. Ideas and pen not flowing. Again. Blah!

Working on speakeasy, pandas, and commission. Somehow I'll get them done. I always do.

The destination is all the fun--the journey sucks!!

Rainy day. Wilson Saturday. A few fun photoshoots planned for next week.
Then mca open studios.

Thinking about a massage tomorrow. Can I justify??

Monday, October 10, 2011

dear dave,

another monday!

Had a good birthday party friday night.  Rohdsa, tanya, chicken, ronnie, insults, australians, gift cards, salad.  Typical and nice, but the group is changing.  A lot of things are changing - I see it.

Saturday print session ok.  Looking at my prints this morning, as I hauled them into the studio, I liked them.  Saturday I just felt so so about them.

Really struggling with screen printing lately.  What to print??  I never know, never am prepared, and keep suffering the consequences.  I wish so badly I could find a theme, a cause, something to feel great about, and that would propel me forward.  Im floundering.  I can't find my way, and am frustrated that I can't break through the block.

It is what it is!  That seems to be the anthem of the time.  Just go with the flow, and hope and pray things change soon.

I feel obligated to be here (corcoran).  Making something.  Producing.  Working.  but today, Im certainly not feeling it...

Friday, October 7, 2011

happy birthday to me!

i don't know -- the past few days have been crazy.  Either I'm really scattered, or time has shortened.  I feel like the days fly by, and I get half done.

I'm so behind on so many things.  But that is tomorrow's problem...

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

another busy day in a stack of busy days.  Hopefully this all adds up to something.

Feeling discouraged as I leave tonight.

blah - maybe just low blood sugar.  Hoping things improve money wise.

Noah today

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

dear dave,

working in the studio today - drawing for speakeasy.

Yesterday I was at the corcoran, making a bunch of rattlesnake prints.  All turned out pretty good.  I was sort of happy with them.

Time goes by so fast.  Its already 6, and I promised myself gym time each day this month.  That means I need to go, and be done for the day.  SO much left on my to do list.

always.  at some point I'll catch up, and be bored.

Monday, October 3, 2011

I love these 2 - I want them to be my mascots

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Arts on the avenue rained out, as expected. Lots if disappointments the past few weeks. Things can only get better?