Ugh - I keep going over the issue with _ - over and over and over.  Every dog walk, every walk to the gym, over and over and over and over.  So exhausted with myself.  When will I stop ruminating over this ????

Anyway, productive day, but inefficient.  Cut some wood for commission, primed, only to have to do all the steps over again, because I realized the original pieces were not right after all.  Think I have it set and settled now.  But then -- another mess-up happens with another reprint ordered, so I need to cut even more wood to work it out.  Ugh.

But my big idea to push for holidays NOW has stalled completely.  Production is super laggy (non-existent) so I'm slowly entering myself into the position I am in EVERY YEAR.  November comes, and I say to myself, if only I had prints MADE, I could then spend time trying to sell them, rather than be bogged down making them.  I can never seem to break the pattern.

So worried and focused on "events" that I have ZERO control over, but just are bonkers, and are heading somewhere, and the uncertainty drives me insane.  I am constantly checking my phone to see if the world has ended.   It's debilitating, to say the least.