a moment in time

i mark your words down in red

my seedlings dont need your water

rain is the day,
that nobody wants to see.

it slips and spits,
but never comes backs down.

it turns and tits
around thick mitts

my rain is better
everybody knows.

that is why
the celery grows! (deep)

Make no mistake,
my rain will fly (hard)
then you will see--

I have made my mark.

dam si mad a

dear dave sitting at Georgetown starbucks, taking a short break. pineapple and coffee always reminds me of my bermuda adventure. Going through work detox. its weird to be done, and not to have that to focus on. Resolution has not come, but it will, and I will move on to different/better things. shopping is slow. What to give jim and jar?? I'm still undecided, and there is no more time. I think I will bluff. I feel blah, like a blank slate. Spent. and dreading going back to work if I dont somehow get to recharge. Christmas can be just as stressful. jingle bells

martin got lost (again)

needy

dear dave
life is stressful, but I always have hx to hug. Difficult past few days - but today, floodgates opened (thank god/peter murphy) was able to draw everything I wanted to. I feel so much better. But there are still very dark clouds in the sky, that I cant ignore or avoid. Tomorrow will be a big test. keep going.

I am so upset, but dont know how to help.

marching past midnight
claire (the rabbit)
speaks to nobody about her move.

She is scared of the goldfish
around every corner.

One day,
the old man will say:
"I am tired of this-you must do that not now."

Until then
she will shop for that elusive white boys shirt
4 blocks around the city
dirty teeth and all.

fall down here

bloody mouth

fuzzy lost

pt x

to remember

the yodel
first snow
remi on the comforter
skimpy outfits
little coffee portions
starbucks christmas decorations
abercrombie cologne spraying on shirts
coffee tequila fresca white wine tea
walking remi down the alley
botched birthday (butter) cake

no low

c*cksucker

nef10

dear dave
Long time no write. Busy with work. same old same old. Excited for January, and all the promise. A new beginning. Big plans.
frustration lingers. But then everything works out. Time is fast and slow. I cant really talk about all that Im excited about until I am done with what bogs me down.

mino

not titled also

not titled

accomplishment

I just got what I wanted, and it feels good. I am sure about that afternoon in the woods. It has changed my life. Happy Thanksgiving dave. Its been quite a year. Things can actually change, and you have much more power then you ever thought you did. and most important-support.

janet said so

march
do
stop
fiddle
paint
select
rub
enjoy
be
say
reveal
dig up
ponder
destroy
flick
sandwich

thanks janet!

blahz

I wish you knew

dear dave
skipping class to go to flea market. want the quality time with hex, as he calls it. feel sort of stuck on print. Afraid I went too far with it. Wish it was less cluttered. There are some good moments in it though.

branddave remains stalled, probably till after January. Goals : print, exhibit. website. clothes. 165. the grand introduction. the great desk return.

for irene

dear irene
I am missing you.
I am thinking about you. In the woods. your hands. Eating Pizza. Little blonde boy. Bad tooks. Oden. Im wishing you over HERE. Your face in your casket. The windy hill you are buried on. your asian ways. THE JOSIE. Fashion credos. Fashion philantropy. Im missing you. I feel you. and miss you.
love dave

enemies don't paddle sharp

it feels like a shackle
but the world WILL return
just like irene always used to say
you are a very bad tookie.

that's what brody said

dear dave,
remember the woods. you are on theF right track. you are on the right track

89

catfish not

morning is the time,
rating the tv.
aren't you BRAD worth it-
you be the judge.

salty sticks licks nicks
mine also still...
say my name in spanish
and I'll do all the talkin'

to love

coffee
paws (kim)
the new purple
cardboard
ebony pencils
watering cans
pulleys
english toffee
crisp mornings in the alley(sean there?!)
scarves
paint smell
creeky wood floors
old office equipment
dark at 5
novelty erasers
gym showers
no socks

highjacked (again)

it's alright

dear dave,
much progress printing saturdays. Feel in a groove. maybe because becky is not around? I think its because there are fewer people - so I can concentrate better. Fun day saturday. added more drawings into my print, and like how it is progressing. Planning to have it for sale, we'll see.

Would love to do the portfolio again, but I think time is too much of an issue. I will drop it.

Very inspired by the weather, my mood, colors, good wood, my iphone, photography, urban outfitters 80's groove, teal and magenta checkers and stripes, plants, birds, newsprint, pet shop boys, and the feeling of freedom I now have. THe world is mine, and I feel it.

I feel like I did in the early 90's, post graduation. In my white bedroom, making mobiles and videos on my little macintosh. Or living on Q st. with cord, thinking about Joe...the past is present, and the present is past. All is ahead and behind, right now. I really truely feel alive.

Nice time out with rem - at rock creek. Crunchy leaves.

Terrific time with Cheryl and sam, then Barb. So nice to get back in touch, and have no time pass. A foundation friendship. I feel loved, and cared for, and understood. It feels terrific.

reno gets muddy

$10 dollar bill sits on the counter

dear dave,
alot of progress on prints. worked for a long time with megan on Saturday. Having fun. Worried about making a big mess. Know when to say when.
Loved working on Birds late Friday. Have interesting plans for them. Need to set out goals, and stick to them. portfolio? I think I should. Enjoying art. Need to stay disciplined and focused. So Many distractions. Big plans fizzle. Don't let that happen.

on steps

this is hard, but it will work out. you and i both know what needs to be said and done. and that will be that. the rooster will crow, michael will get his new bike, elise will learn a language, and i will be free. just dont fuck it up, because the birds are in no mood to party. no mood indeed.

here I am in bed, in chile

afraid of the next day, and what to eat, and rafting. all ahead. all so exciting. I have to look at this year as the same. Exciting and new. The future is a huge question mark, but IT WILL WORK OUT. It always does. i am blessed. I am blessed.

AUGUST 23, 2007 1:05 pm great falls "meadow" path

in this moment - I am loved

random list found in my old spiral notebook

happy wedding


its our anniversary


engaged


with deepest sympathy


thank you

and baby makes 3

your perfect together.


Thinking of you


Someone is thinking about you- me!

miss you

these are a few of my favorite things

done

random porny pictures

thanks erin

dear dave,
erin forced an energy drink on me, and my mind is whirling. but i have no place to put it.
michael driving.
cliff swimming.
hx working.
jimmy hosting.
remi drinking.
kim returning.
dave wasting. time.
maybe i'll wash my vans.

eye candy

fill er up

running into three
makes room for sick
where is tire
I think you said glass

my umbrella is stuck
but the rain wont come

damn your a dick
and an asshole too.

baby steps

dear dave
new excitement is in the warm, humid air. POSSIBILITY! excited about branddave again, being creative, and free. Working on website with cord (new homepage - new text, new art) and signed up for FALL printmaking. Out of the conflict, and into the fresh air. The positive.
excited to be be expressive, and to push out all this positive energy that has been building up inside of me. Looking at art in new ways, and feeling very clear about people - and desires. Focused. So oprah.

Here's to happiness and hope, and possiblity, and freedom.

harvest

and when it comes, you'll feel the weight of it

dear dave.
thinking about sitting on my cot, in the grand canyon, listening to Blur really loud on my Discman, avoiding contact with my fellow travelers, who are mingling over beers. The beautiful canyon all around. The hot sun and my great all purpose soap. My secret perch. Such a distinct place and time. The beginning.

No class this week. odd week - lots of free time. Very summer. Steamy weather and cold drinks. Shorts and flip flops. Feel like going to the pool, and baking in the sun. Popsicles and the good humor man with apple gum. The dime on the street in front of the Holman's house. LAWNS! Smelly gas and sticky thick grass. The curtain on hte sliding glass door. Soap operas and diet lunches. Tina and Mary Jane. Sue glorious sue. Ahhh - memories. Fantastic memories.

iphone

finally activated!!!

dear dave,
feeling a little under the weather the past few days. Sore throat, swollen glands. Wanted to post these pics from around the printing studio, plus a progress pic on my new print. Coming along - but needs a lot mor layers.