not such a great day.  feeling anxious over lack of progress and depressing weather.  All bottled up and frustrating.

distracted by computer, and stupid little things.

drawing fish and otters, nuts and an occasional dog.  Nothing sticking.

obsessing over D.A.'s new music, and B.W.  Watched crazy "beauty brothers" and other YT videos.  All crazy and beautiful and rotten.  All his B.S. just gets to me.  The fantasy that he has perpetuated.  I can't believe there is nothing on web about him being gay.  It's just crazy.  Reminds me very much of J.S.  But he is soooooo infuential on fashion / photography / gay culture / me.  Leaves me feeling gross, but I can't help but love his work (deeply).