Dear Dave,

IT's been almost a year since I last wrote - when we got Echo.  Blogging just became a drag as all I ever did was complain about what was happening.  Sad to say I'm in the same spot, so frustrated today (my 16th anniversary) with my lack of creativity, motivation, and interest in doing anything about it.  I guess this post is a first step?

August always sucks, people leave, and I feel so abandoned.  It went by quick this year, I got some stuff done, but very distracted by outside things - the car, the heat, the broken AC at the apartment, and most recently, Emma's surgery to remove her side lump.  Awaiting news on the biopsy, and it's scary.

Working for Cher one day a week since I think march, and that has been a nice way to get out of the studio.  Ups and downs but for the most part a positive experience.  

So much upset at the studio trying to resolve the black hole of the certificate of occupancy, something I neglected for 10 years, and it finally caught up to me.  Revisited in August, thinking I was resolving it, but it only got worse, and now I'm terrified by it, and next steps which are ghastly, and most likely very expensive.

Puttering along with shopmade, but I do a crappy job of it all around.  Such a delayed $$ response, and It's so hard a gauge what to do.  I'm constantly second guessing every penny I spend, and worrying it won't come back to me.  Lately, I've had some good months, but I put all my eggs in this basket.  Lost Pixies which is really sad.  A nice and easy way to make new things and sell them right away.  Website has been the same.  Commissions way down.  I've neglected everything.

 

I don't work hardly enough daily, and this is all the result.  Poor sales, lack of motivation, and anti inspiration.  I have to turn things around, or . . . 

 

I'm always terrified of the . . .