Still feeling like crap days later - and just as lost as ever.  I have ongoing arguments with imaginary people about how fucked we are, trying to understand why and how this happened.  I just can't square it in my head.  I come up with all sorts of doomsday predictions as if I know anything.  Or knew anything.  

I thought I was informed, keeping up with the news.  It was all a mirage.  A storyline that turned out to be complete fiction.  Others are in charge, the crazy ones, and the sane ones really have no idea.  Theres is the new reality and truth.  Real truth is gone. (how will AI play into this?)

I continue my media blackout, and it forces me to face how completely addicted I was to twitter etc.  The constant updating of the trials and then the election fed me, and distracted me from work and my own anxieties.  I just subverted those.  It will be an impossible hill to climb, but I have to try.  Im 2 days sober.

Emma sick to her stomach (because I fed her apple core / seeds)?  maybe.  Another dominate worry, but hopefully we got thru it today.  Fingers crossed.