Lots of blog and journal reading past few days.  Last days of college and first summer home, avoiding looking for a job and hanging out with church friends.  Amazing how similar the feelings have been throughout the years.  Different circumstances, but I find myself in all the same patterns and frustrations.  Mind opening and sad at the same time.

Wish I had more of a record beyond that.  Capital Presentations, meeting back up with cord, and starting up at BSUR.  I don't think I did much journaling in that period, and really regret it.  Maybe it was too transformative, and I was busy living it.  Hmmm.

Anyway, lots of anxiety returning to the studio this morning after a long weekend.  I was here working some Saturday, but it's hard getting back into the swing, and facing stuff I knew I wasn't looking forward to facing, and had the holiday+weekend as a shield.

Made some progress today.  That is to be expected.  Glad about where I am, I guess.  BIG week ahead, and tomorrow is Cher again, so all will be on hold. Haha, classic.

Joined up with Wall mountables / dcac saturday, then mind went into overdrive.  CLASSIC!! Determined NOT to do it, let the time get critical, get FOMO, and sign up last minute, where I have NO TIME to do something well, get super ambitious, and set myself up for failure because really, I should have given myself more fucking time.

Matches ordered.  Crazy classic.  We'll see how it shakes out.