Things are not as they seem

The world (people) are bazaar, frustrating and mysterious.  Right now, I can't stand them.

So frustrated with XXXX over XXXXX.  I keep thinking about it over and over and over and over.  20 times a day - for 3 days now. 

Making my arguments for why I should be upset - justifying it.  Practicing conversations with (her) - explaining my feelings, refining my words, rewriting each sentence so it makes crystal clear how she hurt me so much.  

Thinking about the future, and if /thens:  If she does this, I'll do that etc etc etc.  Over and Over and Over and Over. I can't confront her, or I don't want to.  That just gives her more of the upper hand.

At some point, my brain will just be exhausted.  There will be no new "events" to add fuel to the fire, and it will burn out.  I can't wait for that day!  

Until then, I'm just stuck with the hurt.