dear dave,
all this crazy running-around-scattered business is really about bad time management. I stall and avoid until deadlines come up, then I rush to complete whatever it is that Ive been putting off. I guess its all a weird mind game. "I didn't have time to do my best!"
I have more time than I admit. I'm just using it poorly.
This morning I have been working on souping up Facebook. But I'm doing it half ass. But I think that's my way. That's sort of my style.
My horoscope today told me to accept my weaknesses. HA-I think I just have, without even realizing it until now!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
dear dave,
yesterday was another whirlwind of photography. Everything went really well, and was so much fun. I feel like I have troves of content now, and its overwhelming to go thru it all, sort it, pick what I like best, and post it.
The whole process has been so fun and creative and interesting. Its not just about making shirts, or taking photos - but also about meeting all these interesting people, spending a fun hour with them, walking around the beautiful neighborhood, and just hanging out. Everybody has been so NICE, and interesting, and open, and different. And my goal is to show THEM.
Yesterday was Fabian (thoughtful and kind) Lindsay (goofy fun!) and Novey (serious, introspective, and cool). I have to say, Im sort of proud of myself for collecting these guys, making shirts that work for them, and taking some good shots. Im learning and growing, and it feels great. And I've been getting great feedback on the shirts too.
Im pulling together the line - but it's been really whacky. Maybe too random. Very off-the-cuff. Im having a BLAST. A total blast. Im loving the collaboration with the models, and I really want to keep that energy going.
I feel ALL this potential, and it feels amazing. Like I bolt of electricity, just flowing straight thru.
yesterday was another whirlwind of photography. Everything went really well, and was so much fun. I feel like I have troves of content now, and its overwhelming to go thru it all, sort it, pick what I like best, and post it.
The whole process has been so fun and creative and interesting. Its not just about making shirts, or taking photos - but also about meeting all these interesting people, spending a fun hour with them, walking around the beautiful neighborhood, and just hanging out. Everybody has been so NICE, and interesting, and open, and different. And my goal is to show THEM.
Yesterday was Fabian (thoughtful and kind) Lindsay (goofy fun!) and Novey (serious, introspective, and cool). I have to say, Im sort of proud of myself for collecting these guys, making shirts that work for them, and taking some good shots. Im learning and growing, and it feels great. And I've been getting great feedback on the shirts too.
Im pulling together the line - but it's been really whacky. Maybe too random. Very off-the-cuff. Im having a BLAST. A total blast. Im loving the collaboration with the models, and I really want to keep that energy going.
I feel ALL this potential, and it feels amazing. Like I bolt of electricity, just flowing straight thru.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
dear dave.
in early, out late. Days have been crazy lately. Whats going on? Why all of a sudden am I so busy? Or behind. My schedule has changed drastically. I guess Im over scheduling my photo shoots, so Im constantly playing catch-up with the shirts.
Fabian/Lindsay/Novey today. Thats just crazy. Plus Im squeezing in a visit with Jimmy.
Worked on shirts a lot yesterday. Some hits, some misses. I need to take more time with it all.
Great time with Mike. I think he makes a really great addition to Branddave. looks good in almost everything.
I must get to it. I remember the days in November, when I had all day to draw and play. Things have really changed. Now the challange is to channel all this creative force towards earning an income!
On my way in (with Remi!! visiting the studio today) I heard my first cicadas of the season. Right on schedule. Summer slooowly fades, and the wonderful bugs take over in August, singing loudly every night. I love it.
in early, out late. Days have been crazy lately. Whats going on? Why all of a sudden am I so busy? Or behind. My schedule has changed drastically. I guess Im over scheduling my photo shoots, so Im constantly playing catch-up with the shirts.
Fabian/Lindsay/Novey today. Thats just crazy. Plus Im squeezing in a visit with Jimmy.
Worked on shirts a lot yesterday. Some hits, some misses. I need to take more time with it all.
Great time with Mike. I think he makes a really great addition to Branddave. looks good in almost everything.
I must get to it. I remember the days in November, when I had all day to draw and play. Things have really changed. Now the challange is to channel all this creative force towards earning an income!
On my way in (with Remi!! visiting the studio today) I heard my first cicadas of the season. Right on schedule. Summer slooowly fades, and the wonderful bugs take over in August, singing loudly every night. I love it.
Monday, July 13, 2009
heavy
dear dave,
A lot is stirring around in my head today -- July 13th. Two big things:
1. Sues Birthday is today. I wish her a very very happy birthday. I wish her the very best. I want the best for her. The very best.
I am so tied to her - so connected. My fear is her fear. I feel so frightened for her.
2. Today is my coming out anniversary. Years ago, on this day, I went on a little walk around my neighborhood with Joe Ireland, and bravely told him " I am gay". What an enormous turning point for me. The biggest ever. I don't think I will every experience something as monumental as that. In that second, my life was forever changed. It gives me chills. It was a conversion. I could love myself again. My true self. And I could be HONEST about who I really am.
Of course I still struggle with insecurity, but that is always the root. The fear of letting people know who you REALLY are. I conquered that fear in that moment, during that week and month. I can always look back on that, and draw from that amazing POWER and strength.
A lot is stirring around in my head today -- July 13th. Two big things:
1. Sues Birthday is today. I wish her a very very happy birthday. I wish her the very best. I want the best for her. The very best.
I am so tied to her - so connected. My fear is her fear. I feel so frightened for her.
2. Today is my coming out anniversary. Years ago, on this day, I went on a little walk around my neighborhood with Joe Ireland, and bravely told him " I am gay". What an enormous turning point for me. The biggest ever. I don't think I will every experience something as monumental as that. In that second, my life was forever changed. It gives me chills. It was a conversion. I could love myself again. My true self. And I could be HONEST about who I really am.
Of course I still struggle with insecurity, but that is always the root. The fear of letting people know who you REALLY are. I conquered that fear in that moment, during that week and month. I can always look back on that, and draw from that amazing POWER and strength.
Friday, July 10, 2009
dear dave
its been a crazy couple of days, preparing all the Artomatic prints that sold. I just couldnt get ahead of the rush. Always two steps behind.
Now that things have slowed down a bit, Im going to work on some more shirts. Anxious to get things moving along on that front.
So this will be a short post. Short and sweet.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
way to go, peanut butter!!
dear dave,
its amazing what a little peanut butter & sugar sandwich (with cherry coke) will do for you. I guess I needed that sugar rush!
Up early this morning, starting "jake waters seeds" prints for Barb and Analya. A big project! I'm trying to take my time, and not rush.
Anyway, feeling slow until now! WOW. A shot of B4 is pulsing in my veins.
Off to the studio, with my freshly painted boards (I was such a Huck Finn this morning). Then Corcoran. Then Studio, Then Bills? Busy day (which seems to be the new norm)
Had another terrific shoot with Dave yesterday. Really like my new t's, and making them. I am having such a good time, and am so inspired by him. Clearly he has turned into my muse - funny because I never saw it coming that first time we met. I love how its all evolved. I can't say enough about how psyched I am about it all. Even if I never sell a single shirt, I already feel really fulfilled and successful. Things are coming along...and great.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
dear dave,
big plans today. Make shirts, wrap artomatic, photo session with Dave, work on framing, plan printing tomorrow. Lots to do. I feel super busy, and my head is going faster then anything. I feel myself getting too far ahead with ideas, and not wanting to finish with all the pots that are already on the stove.
oh well, everything is great. I'm loving what I'm working on, and who I'm working with. And I love my freedom!
I better get to it. Hopefully I will have tome for a better post later in the day, when a lot has been accomplished.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
How now brown cow?
dear dave,
so I made some changes to the blog. It feels a little bit like a work in progress --
Great day with Allie and Beverly today. Progress.
Working on site. I feel like Im building a mansion. Each room is so exciting. But has to be just so. Its hard to let go.
I have to get out of here (studio) and get to gym (VIDA) and get home. So many steps. I can do it!
so I made some changes to the blog. It feels a little bit like a work in progress --
Great day with Allie and Beverly today. Progress.
Working on site. I feel like Im building a mansion. Each room is so exciting. But has to be just so. Its hard to let go.
I have to get out of here (studio) and get to gym (VIDA) and get home. So many steps. I can do it!
Monday, July 6, 2009
NEW ENERGY
dear dave,
yesterday I was a bit of a mess. Sleepy and crabby and listless. I don't know what come over me, but it seemed to happen at some point towards the end of Saturday night, sitting in a theater, watching Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (is that the title??)
Of course I didn't like the movie much, because it dissolved into overload (which almost everybody has said before me). I don't think it was the movie after all, but I just started to feel really blah. BLAH. Like wanting nothing. Nothing to eat, and nothing to do.
Anyway, I spent Sunday vegging out, and that rarely leads to anything good.
This morning I visited Jimmy, brushed Lucy, and slowly made my way in to the studio. Now that I'm here, that horrible blah feeling still lurks inside. Not sure how to shake it, but I KNOW it needs to happen.
Artomatic is CLOSED, and there are plenty of things to complete. Much to do. I will rally myself, find my inner creativity, and push through. BLAHS be gone. now.
yesterday I was a bit of a mess. Sleepy and crabby and listless. I don't know what come over me, but it seemed to happen at some point towards the end of Saturday night, sitting in a theater, watching Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (is that the title??)
Of course I didn't like the movie much, because it dissolved into overload (which almost everybody has said before me). I don't think it was the movie after all, but I just started to feel really blah. BLAH. Like wanting nothing. Nothing to eat, and nothing to do.
Anyway, I spent Sunday vegging out, and that rarely leads to anything good.
This morning I visited Jimmy, brushed Lucy, and slowly made my way in to the studio. Now that I'm here, that horrible blah feeling still lurks inside. Not sure how to shake it, but I KNOW it needs to happen.
Artomatic is CLOSED, and there are plenty of things to complete. Much to do. I will rally myself, find my inner creativity, and push through. BLAHS be gone. now.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
update update update update
I need constant update.
I am a needy guy, needing new news. I check my phone for email. I surf all my sites for new entries, blogs for new posts, facebook for new statuses. I want more news. I just feel hungry for new information. Not really a new thing for me, just exaggerated. I guess it's the phone.
I guess I'm expecting big things to happen, at any minute, all the time. And I want the update.
I need constant update.
I am a needy guy, needing new news. I check my phone for email. I surf all my sites for new entries, blogs for new posts, facebook for new statuses. I want more news. I just feel hungry for new information. Not really a new thing for me, just exaggerated. I guess it's the phone.
I guess I'm expecting big things to happen, at any minute, all the time. And I want the update.
Friday, July 3, 2009
dear dave,
alone in the studio today. I guess its a holiday, but branddave is up and running.
Good day at the corcoran yesterday. A slow start, but I managed to get everything on my list done.
Stopped by Artomatic last night. I am really happy with my work, and wall. The poor trees are hanging on for dear life. Left some new postcards, tended to the trees, freshened up the book, and straightened up Eat poppa eat.
Odds and ends day today. Have some shirts to make, and frames to finish. I feel kind of blah right now, not sure why! Its only 11:05, so that doesn't seem like such a good sign.
Hexy and I had coffee early this morning. Maybe another round is called for?
I need my creative juices flowing.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
quick
got haircut!
picked up some white ink to try on shirts at corcoran today.
finally reprinting GULL!
Mike was a lot of fun - a keeper. Hope to use him a bunch this summer
Dave was cool. New haircut. Session was sort of messy - I need to tighten up my shots. And mix up our location. But I love shooting him, and our collaboration!
New shirts worked well. Gave them all away! But I think Im finding my way with them.
Lots to do.
And be excited about!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
7 short years ago
Happy Anniversary Belquest Buttercup Remington!!
7 years ago, I trekked out to Belquest with Jimmy (and Sue) and picked her up. She was super tubby, and always sleepy. and LOVED water. She is my baby - forever!
dear dave,
waiting for mike this morning, wondering how the shoot will turn out. Actually struggled with shirts last night. My insticts were failing me a bit--I was feeling really unsure of myself. What to put on these shirts. What's going to look good on these guys? It's really hard to tell. I want it to be messy and not too thought out. Not over worked. But they need to look good. I hate it when the shirt goes on, and I don't like it ( for whatever reason). Maybe I react too fast--slow down, give it a try. Maybe I just don't have the right guy.
Mike is younger, so I have high hopes. Well see.
waiting for mike this morning, wondering how the shoot will turn out. Actually struggled with shirts last night. My insticts were failing me a bit--I was feeling really unsure of myself. What to put on these shirts. What's going to look good on these guys? It's really hard to tell. I want it to be messy and not too thought out. Not over worked. But they need to look good. I hate it when the shirt goes on, and I don't like it ( for whatever reason). Maybe I react too fast--slow down, give it a try. Maybe I just don't have the right guy.
Mike is younger, so I have high hopes. Well see.
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