Worked on framing everything today, which is a bigger job then I expected.

I'll be bringing it all up to Red Tree Monday.  Think it's all in order, but I have a full day tomorrow finishing up shirts and prints.

Had a really studio visit with Julia Bernard yesterday.  Always nice to talk about my work, and get feedback.  Added a little (much needed) wind in my sails today.  It's been too long...

feeling worse, now better.  Hopefully a positive upswing.

dear dave,

here is a lousy shot of the gaggle prints I've been working on. Had a long day yesterday trying to finish it up. What should have taken an hour and a half took 3. Always works out that way.

Tonight is the high heel race down 17th, and I'm focused on that. I could be at the corcoran starting a new print, but I'm still unsure what to do next. I feel a little stuck. I think I'm going to take it easy today, because I'm concerned that I'm getting run down. I need to be healthy for the next few weeks.

What to print next? Hmmmm

dear dave,

Waiting on my screens to dry at the corcoran studio.  Gaggle (remix) almost done.  I just have a few more passes to make.

So that means it took about 10 hours total.  Seems like a lot, but didn't feel like so much.  Glad to have two solid prints out of the run.

Now I need to worry about tomorrow.  I really want to redo You Disappoint Me with brighter colors, but feel like that is a bit of a waste.  I need to do that elusive 11th look (project runway).  That quick piece that fills a gap thats missing.  Hmmm, that sets me off spinning, because I don't know what it should be.

Had a good weekend.  Hopefully I can update a bit more as the week goes on, and I get gradually more comfortable with what I have done and the choices I've made.  Time is running out on Red Tree.  Hope I've gone down the right path!

update:

Progress!  Feel good about my gaggle work today.  And meeting, and decision about TW wholesale.

Hopefully tomorrow I can make major progress on Gaggle.  Maybe even finish it up!  We'll see.

Happy to have a few steps behind me.  Feeling more positive for a change.

today I'm finally getting to the gaggle redo I've been avoiding.

 It's a big project with a lot of steps, so it's something I've been worried about accomplishing. But I had it in my head that I wanted to do one for Red Tree, and this is the time to do it.

Waiting for 9:30, when I can pick up my zipcar and take the boards to the corcoran. Then come back, drop car, go back to corcoran and actually start working (for only a few hours).

 Then come back around 3, get shirts, make shirts, ship shirts.

Steps! All day, baby steps.

Peter Oct 21


Dear Dave,

Shot some pics of Peter today, and picked up boards at Home Depot for Gaggle Remix. A good, productive day.

Still feeling anxious about my fate. All in the balance.

Note: 48" boards with not fit in zipcar. Learned the hard way.

dear dave.

spent day in studio, working on "framing" and drawing. Not much going on - which is kind of sucky. I feel anxious.

dear dave,

meeting up with Kim and erin and Mer soon.  Excited about that.

I had another stressful day of stressing.  I got to the Corcoran early and reprinted "Gull".  That took all of 90 minutes, so I was left without anything else set-up.  I can't afford to waste printing time, but that's what seemed to happen.

Back at my studio I realized I had a lot already done.  Probably too much.  But I still feel like I need more.  So the rest of the afternoon was spent working out new prints.  Went pretty well, but I swear the time just flies by.  It's already almost 6, which means it's past the time I should be leaving.

So I'm off.

Image:  Bear/Owl make another appearance!

Sitting in the little computer closet at the corcoran, waiting for my screens to dry.  Excruciatingly impatient as I wait.  Everybody has their screens bunched up at each dryer, so it takes double the time.  I just cant rush around.  It's pointless.

think I found a good solution for salvaging my work from saturday (winterberry), so I feel good about that at least.  It just means multiple screens and SLOW progress.  I need to dial down to first gear if I'm going to make it work.

I have a solid two weeks to wrap up my work for Red Tree.  I need to regroup and see what I have all together, so I use my time wisely.  I've been stalling on Gaggle, unsure if I want to go through all the hoops to get it done.  I want to be able to come up with a re-mix (a new variation) but I'm stumped at the moment.  Probably will just end up with the original set-up.

I've been soooooooooooooooooooooo unsure of myself lately.  It's bad.  I need that confidence to move forward.  It's like lubricant.  It greases the gears and keeps moving things forward.  Hard things.  I'm desperate to feel positive about what I'm doing.

Corcoran, corcoran, corcoran. You're killing me! Turns out they have a big printing conference/demo planned for the studio this afternoon, so we really couldn't stay past class to print.

Started winterberry, but couldn't finish. I've been having such a tough run at printing the past few weeks. Super easy things are giving me trouble. So I find myself constantly trying to cover up my flubs. Either that or start over, which doesn't seem possible. Anyway, hopefully I can improve what I did today.

Took remi out for a much needed run afterwards. Except for the many ticks that hitched a ride on her, it was a fun time.

This whole evita thing has gotten out of hand.  It's in my head ALWAYS.  when I go to bed, when I wake up.  Sitting at my computer working.  Driving.  Man - they really seeped into my entire being.  I feel a little sickened.

Productive morning printing.  Had to cut it short because a class was coming in.  There I was, moving along, loving my solitude, when the lab tech showed up and ruined everything.  Suddenly I had to wrap everything up in a matter of minutes.  Sucked.

I'm doing reprints of You Disappoint me, and Winterberry, for the Red Tree show.  It's nice to do something familiar.  Nice and kind of boring -- and nerve wracking because I know just how I want them to be.  I'm trying to match the originals.

You disappoint me came out well, so I was happy.  Winterberry will have to be continued tomorrow.

I didn't see Peter or Dave this week.  I feel a little bummed out that the light is changing, and I won't be able to do much more going forward.  Probably a good thing because I can concentrate on other things - but sad nonetheless.

Suddenly I feel so melancholy!  So typical for Friday.

dear dave,

yesterday I cut out of here early, and got the massage I've been planning for.  It was TERRIFIC - and well worth it!

today I had a big to do list, and got through about half of it.  But the biggest thing I was worried about I solved, so that weighs heavily towards the productive side.

It's 6:35, and I feel like I want my day to start right now.  I ALWAYS have such creative energy at this time.  But I need to get home to Hexy and Remi, so I'm turning off my evita, sleeping my computer, clicking off my lights, and locking the door.

Tomorrow is another day.


goodnight

Just painting over the print I made today.  That takes care of that!

what a messy day at the corcoran!  A SUPER easy print turned into a nightmare.  Happy to be back to my studio, and done for the day!

Old Europe tonight with Barb and cheryl and (sam?)  Should be fun!

blogger is crazy!  Every post I writing gets formated all strange.  How do I figure this out (easily?)

Back to the corcoran this afternoon.  Yesterday was productive, and hopefully today will be too.  I'm so lucky to have all this time to work there.

It's really hard managing my time.  I get to the studio, then leave, then need to pick up packages at home, then need to get to the post office.  Other stuff just doesnt get done until Wednesday or Thursday.  I need to just be settled with that I guess.

Shoot with Dave on thursday was really frustrating, and I'm lost with how to proceed.  I don't want to cut it off, but can't continue without getting anywhere.  Maybe the clouds will split, and I'll get a magical answer.  I hope so.

TW orders slowed.  WTF?