Bonkers day worried about money going out - taxes, car repair, visa bill, health insurance.  A storm of outflow that has me shaken.  

At the same time, $$ in from Bill.  But somehow that is different $, that I can't touch, and didn't earn, and I just sort of discount.  It's really bizarre.

Feeling shitty about (branddave) things lately.  So negative, and lazy, and directionless.  I had wind in my sails after WHARF friday, but here I am Monday, paralyzed and muddled and worried.  I'm always worried.  Worry is a constant.

THINGS ALWAYS WORK OUT.  NOTHING IS WORSE THAN It's EVER BEEN.  I just can't seem to help myself.  Ugh.

Finished up TAME TILL PROVOKED, and having a devil of a time getting them glued and stained.  Trying to recycle wood, and use up the (dry) glue that I have, and it all just is extra effort and frustration.  I have painted over mistakes on the print surface 10,000 times. Ink, dirt, stain.  Its just a sponge magnet for my mistakes.  

Hoping to find THE PERFECT box to ship it in.  Other 2 go to shopmade, which is a whole other can of worms.  Refreshed the sales report (for April 23) a million times throughout the day, but it was never posted.  It should be posted.  Its so maddening and frustrating.

Same with carefirst.  Policy is displayed, then voided, then disappears altogether.  And their CONTANCT portal is SHIT.  WTF???  It is just a mountain of frustration and wasted energy of concern.  I hate it.