progress

dear dave,
finally finished my first puppet test. Will post soon. Maybe I will put it on youtube first. Don't really like the quality on the blog. or maybe its just the quality of my videos! Everything looks so good on the iphone. maybe its the size, and the glass screen. oh well. Fretting about the quality of my 48hr movie. Rent a camera or no? I think I must. We'll see.

Excited to pick my artomatic space on Sunday.

not really

if you like that you'll love this and me

dear dave,
obsession depression. one thing works, another thing doesnt. Everything wont bend to my will. revise revise revise. rechange. sort out. reshoot. rescan. trace. save as.

everything is on a down cycle. obsessed over my new video project, but work on it in snippets, then want to do-over. its only a minute anyway. what am I thinking (im not thinking).

Want to abandon my prints. Want to paint. On what. How? No time.

snippets of ideas. too many snippets. Im getting ahead of myself, but I stay behind. Frustration. Anxiety, relief. Fear.

Its all in there.

im in the pool, instructors give me vague instructions, with my gear on, sucking for air. I DONT want to scuba ron. dont make me.

avoiding things gets me no place. nowhere. my projects can wait. PLEASE HOLD I need excercise.

reject

probably will (not)

dear dave
Looking at my print, I had no idea what to do.  Scared to destroy it.  The more work you put into something, the more precious it becomes.  I'm afraid to make the next move.

Came home, and worked on my movie instead.  By "worked" I mean obsessed.  Poor remi was dancing around.  One more change.  One more viewing.  It's so addicting.  I can't stop myself from looking and changing and looking.  Saturday was the same, but worse.  Sat down for 15 minutes.  Turned into over 8 hours of editing.

I came up with 4  1 minute or so versions(!)  Worked on it a bit again today.  4 f-ing versions, all with different aspects I like and don't.  Crazy.  Now that I have discovered how to SAVE AS, Im in trouble.  Maybe its better not to know.

Anyway, I feel like I made progress, but much more needs to be made if Im going to make a credible 4 minute movie in 48 hours.  Maybe it wont be so credible after all.  Still cant decide about using puppets or not.  Seems easier.  I want to only have to depend on myself.  A challenge I know, but its what I think I want.

I will post my work as soon as I decide which version is the final.  Next project>more puppets.  And story writing (somehow).

tommy wants to talk?!

dear dave,

anxious to get back to my puppets. Plan to work on prints for artomatic, but go tthe idea to do some paintings also. Maybe I will wait to see the amount of space I get. Love the idea of paintings, becasue they don't have to be framed. Hate the idea of framing. So expensive and tedious.

Not sure where the printing will take me. Worried that I ruined my bird print last week, with too harsh colors. Scared to look at it again. And do I continue on with the series? Probably, but still undecided.

ok, update overwith. on to action.

candy ass

dear dave,

slow and steady. Worked on some ridiculous puppets last night. It's hard to move the puppets, and hold the camera. Hmm, that will have to be worked out. And how do I make them talk? I have no solution for that either. Maybe just a voice of God narrator.

Also realized I will probably need to storyboard, so I have a plan for shooting. But I think they are fun, and could work. All my footage is raw. Didnt have time to work / obsess over it. I'm getting frightened of imovie/guitar band. They really are a black hole. I could spend hours/days without moving, concentrating on the flow. Its exhilarating and scary at the same time. I need to pace myself. For H's sake!

I'm not really sure why I am making all these fake ads. But it's fun.

racheal said no

dear dave,
blah blah blah blah blah.

Feeling a bit blah. Worked late on a new movie, but feel blah about it. I need to recharge. As a certain ladyship would say "it's forced."

Thinking about using puppets for 48 hour film. So I think I should test them.

We have had days of clouds. I think that is what has affected me. My contacts feel thick, and my eyes are dry. Maybe I will go get new contacts, and a new attitude. Or maybe not.