dear dave,
obsession depression. one thing works, another thing doesnt. Everything wont bend to my will. revise revise revise. rechange. sort out. reshoot. rescan. trace. save as.
everything is on a down cycle. obsessed over my new video project, but work on it in snippets, then want to do-over. its only a minute anyway. what am I thinking (im not thinking).
Want to abandon my prints. Want to paint. On what. How? No time.
snippets of ideas. too many snippets. Im getting ahead of myself, but I stay behind. Frustration. Anxiety, relief. Fear.
Its all in there.
im in the pool, instructors give me vague instructions, with my gear on, sucking for air. I DONT want to scuba ron. dont make me.
avoiding things gets me no place. nowhere. my projects can wait. PLEASE HOLD I need excercise.
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