mixed bag

dear dave

a lot of angst. Disrupted sleep. Frustration over getting my car fixed. I just want it fixed! Waiting for calls from the insurance companies is TORTURE. Waiting for calls /emails about anything lately has been torture. Why don't people get back to me? Has everything come to a grinding halt? Days just go by. GRRRRRRRR!

I'm feeling sooooo impatient.

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Talked with analya about her friends that are working on an opera. The kicker--they expect it to take 5 years to complete! That really struck me. I love the idea of setting off on a 5 year project. But then I quickly realize that's just how life is. Hours add up to days add up to months add up to years. I know its not an original thought, but it got me thinking (again). What seeds am I planting now that would/could blossom in 5 years? I'm excited.

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Jimmy's treatment weighing on me heavily. Its hard to deal with. Its hard to feel happy when I think of her in bed, exhausted and sick. I just pray she feels better soon.