weekend odds & ends

Dear Dave,

Overall pretty good (sluggish) weekend. Took remi to great falls on Saturday, and it was really nice to be back on the paths that we walked so regularly a few years ago. I miss being there. It is so incredibly beautiful, especially in the section where I took the top photo. tall trees with a thick carpet of green on the ground. The cicadas were in full august 'bloom' which I LOVE!

Remi had a great time running around, and getting super mucky. A bath at home washed away all the crap she picked up.

Saturday night we had a little quick BBQ at Sheons, and all tasted terrific. I highly recommend cooking corn on the cob like we did: remove all the silk but keep the husk on, and slow cook on the grill (top on) around the sides. Yummy smokey flavor!

Sunday was DEXTER season 3 catch up. A bunch of great episodes in the middle, but the resolution was disappointing. More potential than payoff. Oh well.

Then dinner at Lee's with Brian. Beef roast, potatoes, corn, cookies. A perfect Sunday evening meal. Afterwards we all sat around his table, listening to AIR, and poured through (fashion) magazines. A moment to remember.

Hansel August 19 '10

Such a beautiful and inspiring animal, I'm so into him!

dear dave,

the flip side to discovering old music that you once loved and listened to often is the very limited staying power it has. 1 or 2 listens and you're over it (again). After the glow of nostalgia comes boredom. I hate that.

I really hate when I get bored of things that I once really really loved. It makes me so sad to realize how expected it is. Attention spans are getting so limited.

I'm even exhausted and bored writing about it.

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Busy Friday preparing for Peter and wrapping up the week. A few things coming up which have potential. Super disappointed about Mid City caffe, and the lack of communication. I hold on to hope that somehow it will work out.

August, I'm so over you! I am so incredibly anxious to have the world moving again. Everything feels slumped. Let's all go back to school, and start life up again.

dear dave,

I LOVE LOVE LOVE finding an old song that I once cherished, but haven't listened to in a long time. It's such a revelation to push play, and hear those familiar notes and words.

An instant high! I just LOVE it!

Found a pet shop boys single that brings back so many wonderful memories. Buying my first Miata. Obsessing about Sean from Urban Outfitters! Just starting to drink coffee! Driving around town, radio blaring, top down, excited! It's all so wonderful, and fresh in my mind.

I feel different now. Feels like a long time ago. Not bad different, just older. I need to find new things to be excited about. New music and people that stimulate me. We all need that!

Cheers.

dear dave,

life sure is interesting.

I feel so holed up in my studio the past few days. Computer obsession raging. In full bloom! Not so productive. Clearly it's an ebb to some cosmic flow. Where is the flow? I'm anxious for the flow.

I've been doing a lot of surfing, looking for new ways to market myself and art. Of course I want instant payoff, which is stupid and impractical. It all takes time. The world is so huge. Other people seem to prosper, or appear to prosper.

I'm in this CONSTANT cycle of doing something small, and then monitoring the reactions. Comments! Emails! But they don't come on my schedule, and all I feel is frustration. Which sucks. And is useless.

I should just turn the screen off, and work. But it always seems to suck me back in.

I want to change, but refuse to. round and round we go.

dear dave,

We had Hex's yard sale Saturday, and it was a big success. A lot of stuff was hauled off )probably 3/4ths), which always feels really good. Surprising thing was that it was only a few people getting tons of stuff. Makes you think about HOARDERS on tv, and feel a little bit bad contributing to their problems. One person's trash is another persons pathology.

We made some good money, and made a lot of progress towards moving Hex out. Both really great things.

Corcoran closed for the summer, so printing is on hold until mid-september. I'm going to focus on marketing and sales the next few weeks. Hopefully I can make a lot of progress on those two fronts, and launch my fall well.

So many plans! It's exciting.

image: post sale dregs

dear dave,

great day today. perfect sort of reset.

Coffee with Glen felt like a shot in the arm. Just as he said, it's really great to talk with somebody who is doing what you are doing. It's SUCH a cliche, but sooo true: just knowing that I am not alone is so helpful. Other people are struggling with the same things I am, and succeeding. I really enjoyed talking with him.

after 3 weeks of cancellations, it was terrific to shoot with Peter again. I LOVE TAKING PICTURES! And he is really fun to see regularly and spend that hour with.

I was really happy with the one shirt we did. The other stuff not so much (my fault). I just need to work harder, and stick with it. I vow to stay positive about it all!!

Michael Jay McClure is scrumptious.

thank you.

Dear Dave,

What has happened to my blogging lately? It seems to have shriveled up into a quivering shadow of it's former self. Oh wait, that's me!

Yesterday worked out well. I got some prints installed at Easel Salon, and was happy to have finally made the step. I was having such a hard time trying to figure out what goes where, hoping to have the show at Mid-City Caffe, and wanting to save some things for that.

Once I broke thru that little juggernaut, other good things started to happen. A few longstanding frustrations resolved themselves a bit, I heard from Mid-City after all, and got a few promising emails and contacts.

This morning was spent helping Hexy pick out new glasses, so I got a super late start. It's 3:27, and I'm just now getting into my groove. So I'll get back to it.

So much for blogging.

image: branches (2) at Easel Salon

AFTERNOON REBOOT

Let's see what I can accomplish.

Past few days have been mental torture! What is wrong with me? I'm so muddled and directionless. Getting things done, but dragging.

Have coffee

Have a few hours

let's see.......

not super productive today - again! ARG!

Dear Dave,

Really have lost my mojo the past few weeks. That was some cold!

Managed to pull together for yesterday's sidewalk sale- thanks to Hex. He was the engine and I was the caboose. I've been dragging my heels for days now. Going through the motions, but not feeling any fire under my feet. I'm so anxious to shake this malaise!!

Happy to have a few solid days at the studio. Corcoran closed for the summer, so I won't be dividing my days. Now it's all about catching up on orders, finishing framing, and planning for the fall.

SALES!

Happy to feel (light) change in the air. I need to get moving on all fronts. GO

crazy week - ends on a crazy note.

A mixed up day full of running around with Remi (who was super sick because she ate corn syrup last night), helping Jimmy take Lucy to the vet (because her infection went form bad to worse).

Not a lot accomplished at the studio. And another cancellation on Peter.

I have to think that things happen for a reason. Sometimes you CANT control anything. Today was like that.

It's now over. And tomorrow is another chance.

mixed feelings, but its done.

dear dave,

Life is tough. I keep feeling just ok health wise. Sinus infections are hard to shake. I have to realize that. Sink into it and be patient. AND FIGHT!

Found my old Christina Aguilera Back to Basics cd, and I'm loving it. Reminds me of going to Target during press checks with Erin at GG, and driving home thru Dupont Circle, listening to it for the first time. Hoping to find a few songs to hang my hat on. To be inspired by. All those moments of uncertainty and angst. How to come up with new designs. How to continue on at bsur. I look back and feel tenderness for myself.

Uploaded Beverly's site today, which is a big weight off my shoulders. So happy all the tech problems solved themselves! Check it out here: http://www.beverlytadeu.com/site/home.html


Off to the corcoran this afternoon for 2nd to last print session for the summer. Fingers crossed it goes well.

Sidewalk sale this weekend. Feeling unsure about that. How to proceed??

Photos: Positives at the Corcoran. A drawer full!

dear dave,

cloudy skies / cloudy head. Very Wednesday. Mid point of everything.

I have such mixed feelings about august. Feels so blah. Like the hours before you get on the plane to go home. Summer is not really over, but winding down. Falls not here yet.

Not so blah about work, just an overall feeling. Hard to shake. I'll do my best!

a seriously amazing shot of Christie Turlington from the August 10 Vogue (italy) by Steven Meisel, and a dead pigeon on R st. by me.

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Feeling much better (physically). I feel my body getting stronger. All the cells are working hard, pushing out the infection.
I have a lot of things to get done, so my mind shouldn't wander off too much. Coming up on two years way from bsur - on my own. That really shocks me.

Hopefully later I'll have a progress report for the day, with lots of checks!

dear dave,

slow recovery is underway. Spent a big chunk of the weekend resting. Finished up "to go" cat saturday. Only 3 more "sessions" left to print at the corcoran. Summer has flown.

I'm right in the middle blahs of everything. Not looking forward to August, because I'm guessing it will be a really slow month. A good chance to regroup. I seem to always be regrouping!

Maybe I could get paid to regroup.

Anyway, hoping the week is super productive, and pulls me out of this little sicky slump I've found myself in.