Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Sad to discover I won't be doing Story District illustrations anymore.  Decided to do something else.  Bummer.

One door closes, another window opens.


Tuesday, July 10, 2018

More sad days pile up.  We saw Sue for the last time yesterday.  A long hot car ride to Baltimore, and sitting in a little funeral waiting room, looking at my shoes on the carpet and anticipating the worst.  It wasn't so bad, she was mostly covered, and her face had color.  Ha, it always did! 

I tried to absorb the image as best I could, and to honor all that she means to me.  But it's not something you want to linger over, the face of your dead sister.  I thought about touching her, but wasn't compelled. The exact opposite, so I didn't.

Another longer hotter car ride home, with a stop at the rest area on 95.  i remember meeting her there on our way out to the bay with the dogs.  I took Polaroids of us with young remi.  lots of memories of being with her out in nature.  Driving to remote places and tanning or walking the dogs.

Emma is frustrating us by not eating her food.  It is such a weird problem.  And leads to so much anxiety.  Otherwise she seems normal.  Or more hyper.  Just took her to the dog park where she had a lot of fun, especially with a great Dane.  I looked on prying she would get trampled.  It was huge, but very gentle.

Friday, June 29, 2018

Wretched grieving the loss of Sue.  Haunted by the idea that I will never see her again, smell her, and hold her.  I will miss her forever and ever and ever.

Lots of her things to sort through and distribute.  A daunting task.

I searched high and low through her room and car and phone for something that she may have written.  Found a bunch of sequential notes on an ipod, written a few years ago.  Insights to what she was dealing with, but all very much of what I already understood.

It's just so sad.  I realize I have 50 years worth inside of emotions and upsets and worries for her well being.  And a million memories of fun and love.  I have to be determined to think of things in a positive light:  She is finally free.  And in a wierd and obvious way, so am I.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

A horrible day I will never forget

Thursday, May 3, 2018

super hot - but hopefully temporary.  Insta-summer.

Emma has only few more days of heat.  good news.

Working on transferring website.  almost there, but have hesitations.  Trade offs are inevitable.

Thought my internet was FIXED (!), then had same trouble again today.  ugh : (

Tuesday, May 1, 2018

Busy few days pulling prints together for CDR auction (below).  Came out well, but many hiccups.  Computer problems are getting worse and more frequent. 

I keep putting off buying a better (smaller screened) computer that is going to force me to give up iweb and all the other software I rely on (bitter)

WARM next few days.  Good, but a shock to the system.  SO SO SO anxious to get Emma out of being in heat, so I can take her to the park again.  She is so bottled up.  Poor girl.

Monday, April 23, 2018

Spring has been so spotty, just like my attempts to keep up with the blog. 

Its cold, then nice then cloudy, then windy, then warm, then cold again.  Today we were back to being slightly cold (wore shorts) but coldish and breezy.

Another monday at Branddave!  Brought the peregrine cards over, and planned for Pixies.  Happy with the card designs overall, but always want to do better.  Wish I had more new ideas.  Hoping the go well at Peregrine.

Tomorrow back to printing (charlie).  Will be a challenge getting all the blacks and greys right.

Emma in HEAT, which is such an epic drag.  Can't take her out to the park everyday (like we have done for months and months) so she is more ansty, and so am I.  Miss it, and feel bad for keeping her confined.  the bleeding is terrible.  I semi remember it with Remi, but it's a blur.  Something to endure!

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Thursday, March 29, 2018

felt like first day of spring this afternoon, so I skipped the gym and went for an ice coffee.  Hopefully this will be a permanent change!

Mailed all my mini prints to Trohv yesterday, and got my new cards out.  Time to shift gears again and draw more.  And convert the website so I can start accepting online sales again.

Anxious to get my studio pulled back together.  Thought the outside space would be done by now, but they haven't even started.  So it's more weeks of being packed in here.

Today I had a client come in, and I'm always so self conscious of how the space looks.  I go into this little speech of explanations, and really people never care.  But then I do it again.  Obviously I care!

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

coffee with Cher and almost Jeanette

Rockville redbud pickup - 4th time is the charm.  Came out great but I instantly noticed a "patch" job on the frame.  Touch up with stain at the studio worked perfect.

Working on mini prints and more drawing.  Things going better but still slow.

Emma loves to steal gloves.  Second time today. Blanco Diablo!!


Emma and her sticks

New mini prints

finished finally!!!

Monday, March 12, 2018

drawing slow going as expected.  Spending my days slogging through.  Some progress coming along.

back to winter weather, but the time has changed.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

day 2 of drawing push.  so so.  At least I am drawing.  Drawing will lead to drawing.  And more drawing.  At least it always has...

fun day in the park with Emma.  Dogs come in one by one, and soon there is a whole pack running around like a current.  Emma likes to hide under the picnic table to lose Jake, who just keeps humping her.  Bo too (her forbidden true love)


Tuesday, March 6, 2018

massage this afternoon which has left me dreamy!  Probably best to go right to bed after them.  My whole body feels calm and drugged.

Working on new drawings for cards and slow going!  I guess I just have to make myself draw everyday until I get somewhere.  It's painful starting.

Finished Barry's prints, and finally the framing project.  Pick up this week, and expect it will look awesome.

New big project is no projects.  Just DRAWING.  8 hours a day for as many days as I can.  yeah right...

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

warm sun
warm breeze

signs of spring!

ready ready ready - but it's still too early!

Thursday, February 8, 2018

good day overall.  back on track with REDBUD print on paper after an f-up yesterday.  Got some new paper at BLICK this morning, and redid it.  The next phase (framing) is what scares me!  I just need to push ahead and figure it out.  Framing is never fun.

good news from HM - another renew.  Free $, I love it.

Need to finish up Chinchillas and print for Amanda, then it is on to 2018.  There is so much to accomplish.

Took emma to Dumbarton at 4:30 sharp.  Everybody was there: shadow, bella, luna, frankie, hopkins, scout, the greyhounds, and the little stumpy barker.  Emma loves them all.

Wednesday, February 7, 2018